Aww, thanks Renee! I just saw your message.
It is AMAZING how much those experiences can effect you for life, no matter how hard you try to suppress the memories and feelings. I was also the main target of abuse as my sisters were old enough to threaten to tell and to leave, but I was just a little girl paralyzed by fear. My pain and fears have not been validated at all by my family, I was basically told to get over it. But that has made me a stronger person and has shaped my moral compass. You're a very strong and awesome woman, Renee... I'm glad you didn't let that fear control you, and you're smart enough to know that it's NOT right and it's NOT your fault! People who beat on those who are helpless are sad & pathetic, and ultimately karma does get them.