Got out of that evil calculus class..turns out, I was placed in there due to a clerical error! It wasn't necessary for my major and was 2 levels above the math I SHOULD'VE been taking.
So good news is, I'm not nearly as dumb as I thought! lol
It just feels like this huge awesome weight off my shoulders
now I can focus on my other classes, which I'm already doing pretty well in
and it looks like I'll be making the deans list
yay!