I had to turn off the news. I would start crying. I don't want to ignore it, but it was just hitting me hard. Those poor children/parents/everyone. I simply cannot imagine. As someone who lost a young brother around that age in a tragic way, it still doesn't compare, it's just so sickening how it happened and just... those innocent kids were just going off to school, just starting their life! It's so depressing. One stupid man took the lives of so many kids, destroyed so many families for the rest of their lives, it's just unimaginable. As I sit here watching the Polar Express with my 4 year old sister, I'm reminded how lucky we are, but I also almost feel guilty watching it... knowing these kids and families aren't going to get a chance.
It's really disgusting. My nieces and nephews are all around the 5 year old mark - it's just so impossible to comprehend that something like that could happen. You expect that, when you send them to school in the morning, they're going to be safe...
It's just...too horrible for words. It really is. I mean, my God, they were just children. I was at work from 7-7 today and didn't hear anything about it until Mike text me, and even then I didn't know the severity.
My heart goes out to all of the families and the kids.
I rarely cry from things like this which are, at least physically, removed from me. But my eyes have been welling up on and off throughout the day. Thinking of the Christmas presents that will never be opened. Seeing the flags lowered. Thinking of all those teacher who, at some point in the future, are going to have to walk back through those school doors.
We had a school shooting in our elementary school six years ago or so. My mother was there, and we lost a good family friend. But there were no children involved, since it was an inservice day. Even so, with "only" two adult deaths, I've watched many of the teachers we know struggle to make themselves go on. I can not fathom the exponential increase in grief with so many young lives lost.
My heart aches for everyone touched by this, which is everyone.