The Venting Thread
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Too many hormones today. Very angry and very depressed just because I can be.
Also I hate retail. I'm so tired of being a number or a piece of paper. I'm tired of societal standards. I want to do work I'm capable of and be paid what it's worth. I don't want to school so I can stress and be depressed and rip my hair out all over again just for a piece of paper when I don't want to go through school again so badly. I just don't. Not ever. And then after that I'm mad that I have to jump through hoops just to make a living. Everything else makes its living directly. I go to school, to get a job, to get money, to buy food and live and junk. Everything else comes out its burrow and finds a radish or hunts something down. I hate the indirect manner of achieving things as a member of this species. Yes, I am thatannoyed today that I go to that level. I hate it. Everything involves money and pieces of paper.
And then lately I'm tired of being judged for wanting a simple life on a country lane. No, I don't want to climb the corporate ladder and get all the degrees and spend money on school and go through all the existential things. I just want to get a car, a small one-story in a rural area, with a fence, a dog, and a healthy relationship. Simple is happy for me. I don't need the complications and extras but everything feels so far away.
Waaaaay too many hormones in the system today.
Also I hate retail. I'm so tired of being a number or a piece of paper. I'm tired of societal standards. I want to do work I'm capable of and be paid what it's worth. I don't want to school so I can stress and be depressed and rip my hair out all over again just for a piece of paper when I don't want to go through school again so badly. I just don't. Not ever. And then after that I'm mad that I have to jump through hoops just to make a living. Everything else makes its living directly. I go to school, to get a job, to get money, to buy food and live and junk. Everything else comes out its burrow and finds a radish or hunts something down. I hate the indirect manner of achieving things as a member of this species. Yes, I am thatannoyed today that I go to that level. I hate it. Everything involves money and pieces of paper.
And then lately I'm tired of being judged for wanting a simple life on a country lane. No, I don't want to climb the corporate ladder and get all the degrees and spend money on school and go through all the existential things. I just want to get a car, a small one-story in a rural area, with a fence, a dog, and a healthy relationship. Simple is happy for me. I don't need the complications and extras but everything feels so far away.
Waaaaay too many hormones in the system today.
A friend of my boyfriend's went missing at the end of September. A body was found in a river 6 miles from her condo yesterday. Today it was confirmed to be her. 
RIP Kayelyn. I never knew you but you meant a hell of a lot to a LOT of people.
RIP Kayelyn. I never knew you but you meant a hell of a lot to a LOT of people.
I'm so sorry. I'm glad she was found, though, and that her family and friends can have an answer. My vent:
The bad thing about being really good about dealing with crazy people (friendly, welcoming, addressing their concerns with tact, keeping their mind at ease, not outwardly judging their craziness) is that then the crazy people request to see you. *sigh* I'm at my crazy quota for the week, I'm not looking forward to this next appointment.
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What about asking them to change it before you resign? I've done that before. Worst case scenario, they won't, best case is total peace of mind.
I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my living situation -_-
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Oh no. That's terrible. I'm so sorry.
((((HUGS)))) I'm so sorry for your loss. Though, I'm glad he was found.
The feeling of someone going missing is terrible, and, I've had a similar experience with someone who was very close to me. Unfortunately, this person hasn't been found.
I'm so sorry.
A friend of my boyfriend's went missing at the end of September. A body was found in a river 6 miles from her condo yesterday. Today it was confirmed to be her.
RIP Kayelyn. I never knew you but you meant a hell of a lot to a LOT of people.
RIP Kayelyn. I never knew you but you meant a hell of a lot to a LOT of people.
The feeling of someone going missing is terrible, and, I've had a similar experience with someone who was very close to me. Unfortunately, this person hasn't been found.
I can't believe that the cop that chokeheld a man to death was not thrown into jail
Some countries riot for revolution, some gather to create a new foundation for government. But I ultimately believe and will not be surprised if America simply does nothing at all. I wasn't surprised about the outcome of the case.
The comments all over Facebook make me want to go into hiding for a few months, though. Apparently people don't understand what "racism" really is...
The comments all over Facebook make me want to go into hiding for a few months, though. Apparently people don't understand what "racism" really is...
**** this so much.
My cousin was rushed to the hospital with a severe headache this afternoon. She is confused and incoherent and hasn't gotten any better since they got her in the hospital. She's an AWESOME person and a wonderful mother of 4 very young boys. Her husband is fighting bone cancer in his leg for 2 years and really they just DON'T deserve this at all! My aunt and uncle have already had one child with lymphoma too. They deserve a break.
I saw her this last weekend and she was fine. I'm terrified for them right now.
If you pray, please please add Summer and her family in.
My cousin was rushed to the hospital with a severe headache this afternoon. She is confused and incoherent and hasn't gotten any better since they got her in the hospital. She's an AWESOME person and a wonderful mother of 4 very young boys. Her husband is fighting bone cancer in his leg for 2 years and really they just DON'T deserve this at all! My aunt and uncle have already had one child with lymphoma too. They deserve a break.
I saw her this last weekend and she was fine.
I'm terrified for them right now.If you pray, please please add Summer and her family in.
**** this so much.
My cousin was rushed to the hospital with a severe headache this afternoon. She is confused and incoherent and hasn't gotten any better since they got her in the hospital. She's an AWESOME person and a wonderful mother of 4 very young boys. Her husband is fighting bone cancer in his leg for 2 years and really they just DON'T deserve this at all! My aunt and uncle have already had one child with lymphoma too. They deserve a break.
I saw her this last weekend and she was fine. I'm terrified for them right now.
If you pray, please please add Summer and her family in.
My cousin was rushed to the hospital with a severe headache this afternoon. She is confused and incoherent and hasn't gotten any better since they got her in the hospital. She's an AWESOME person and a wonderful mother of 4 very young boys. Her husband is fighting bone cancer in his leg for 2 years and really they just DON'T deserve this at all! My aunt and uncle have already had one child with lymphoma too. They deserve a break.
I saw her this last weekend and she was fine.
I'm terrified for them right now.If you pray, please please add Summer and her family in.
I hope everything turns out all right, I'm sending vibes.
So far good news- clear CT scan and she finally became responsive around 2 am. Saying she feels much better too. She went to the hospital because of headaches and then started going incoherent and was unresponsive all afternoon and most the night. So that's terrifying.
Waiting on MRI results though.
Waiting on MRI results though.
Threw out my back a few days ago. Not exactly sure how - maybe remnant from moving and installing a toilet on Saturday, but I doubt it.
It's been getting worse and worse. I can barely walk today without a weird limp and it hurts to sit in my computer chair for too long. I can't bend over and I have to take stairs at a snail's pace.
Despite all of that, I've been trying not to complain a whole lot. SO has been really stressed with the whole work thing I mentioned previously, and I've been stressed with Christmas work deadlines so I've just been dealing with it.
Then he cut his thumb badly yesterday, and suddenly the world revolved around him and I feel like the bottom of a shoe. That can't walk.
Wah.
It's been getting worse and worse. I can barely walk today without a weird limp and it hurts to sit in my computer chair for too long. I can't bend over and I have to take stairs at a snail's pace.
Despite all of that, I've been trying not to complain a whole lot. SO has been really stressed with the whole work thing I mentioned previously, and I've been stressed with Christmas work deadlines so I've just been dealing with it.
Then he cut his thumb badly yesterday, and suddenly the world revolved around him and I feel like the bottom of a shoe. That can't walk.
Wah.