The Venting Thread
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I'm in canada. The land of healthcare. But insurance is still through the roof for me (for my budget anyway), $50 per month for basic coverage (hospital stays, ambulance, some vision and dental and supposed to have prescriptions but read on...).
... Except the prescriptions part? Doesn't cover anything for my drugs for my head. It's a "pre-existing condition" so I'd have to pay not only my basic coverage but another $60-80 a month on top of that.
Cool. Well now what? Thankfully I don't think what i'm on currently is hugely expensive, but what if it's changed? What if i have to go on something more pricy? Ugh. Nothing compared to Americans but it's still a **** off.
... Except the prescriptions part? Doesn't cover anything for my drugs for my head. It's a "pre-existing condition" so I'd have to pay not only my basic coverage but another $60-80 a month on top of that.
Cool. Well now what? Thankfully I don't think what i'm on currently is hugely expensive, but what if it's changed? What if i have to go on something more pricy? Ugh. Nothing compared to Americans but it's still a **** off.
Well, it's official. Sherman won't be staying. He and Abrams have been doing so well with each other outside and in passing in the house (they were even all playing outside this morning with a toy that would normally have been a not-with-Sherman-around toy), so I thought I'd try them all in the house for a short stint while everyone was tired. All of the toys were picked up, we all came inside....no issues. Kept everyone moving around and engaged, Abrams was doing alright. When he would approach Sherman there was some mild posturing, but nothing abnormal (like...typical dog meets dog for first time posturing) and since Sherman didn't reciprocate and let Abrams sniff him over and Abrams didn't take offense, I was hoping that was a good sign. Was about ready to end on a good note and put one of them away when Sherman walked by Abrams in the living room, paying him no mind at all, and Abrams attacked him.
GOD DAMMIT.
As soon as I yelled, "NO!" Abrams immediately desisted and dropped into a down, Sherman screamed and ran and hid in my office. Abrams got thrown outside. Sherman is none the worse for wear; Abrams didn't hurt him at all (there was just a little bit of spittle, but no marks). I just had to go and tell him it was okay to come out and he came over for some pets and is now happily playing with the toys I put back down for him.
I'm just sooooooooo frustrated. And now I feel like crying, because I'm pretty sure I just cemented the fact that it's a lost cause, and have probably ruined Abrams for life on ever allowing another dog into the house at all. (Which I know isn't true, but it sure feels that way.) UGH. *cries*
GOD DAMMIT.
As soon as I yelled, "NO!" Abrams immediately desisted and dropped into a down, Sherman screamed and ran and hid in my office. Abrams got thrown outside. Sherman is none the worse for wear; Abrams didn't hurt him at all (there was just a little bit of spittle, but no marks). I just had to go and tell him it was okay to come out and he came over for some pets and is now happily playing with the toys I put back down for him.
I'm just sooooooooo frustrated. And now I feel like crying, because I'm pretty sure I just cemented the fact that it's a lost cause, and have probably ruined Abrams for life on ever allowing another dog into the house at all. (Which I know isn't true, but it sure feels that way.) UGH. *cries*
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Damnit. I decided to tell a friend of mine about some personal issues/struggles,& now? She really doesn't want to be friends with me. "Look! There's no reason to have such feelings! You have such a wonderful life. Family. House. Friends. You have food. Be grateful, & be happy with your life."
*sigh*
(((((HUGS)))))
I'm so sorry this hasn't worked out for you.
You tried your best. Please don't blame yourself.
*sigh*
(((((HUGS)))))
I'm so sorry this hasn't worked out for you.
You tried your best. Please don't blame yourself.
Sorry it won't work out with Sherman. 
Maybe you rushed a little bit, but who among us hasn't been guilty of that? You haven't ruined anything forever. Sherman is an older puppy with health problems that make him look and smell weird. Much different situation than bringing a young, healthy puppy into your household someday.
Everything will be ok. Maybe this is just the universe's way of telling you that Sherman is someone else's dog, not its way of telling you that you can never add another dog to your household.
Everything will be ok. Maybe this is just the universe's way of telling you that Sherman is someone else's dog, not its way of telling you that you can never add another dog to your household.
Thank you for being logic. :hail:
I'm finished having my over reaction now. I definitely plan to keep working with them both and making their interactions positive...but we'll just keep doing what we're doing. If they start to like each other, awesome. If not, oh, well. Sherman will have his happy ending regardless, and that is what matters.
I'm finished having my over reaction now. I definitely plan to keep working with them both and making their interactions positive...but we'll just keep doing what we're doing. If they start to like each other, awesome. If not, oh, well. Sherman will have his happy ending regardless, and that is what matters.
Honestly, fostering has helped me understand and read my dogs so much in this aspect. The first time or two something like this happens, you feel like crap, blame yourself (and maybe others blame you, too) and then you start to figure it out and learn about why it's happening. I'm somewhere around 20 fosters in now, and with each one that comes, I learn something new about my dogs and what they like, tolerate, and don't like, and how to stack odds in my favor for a permanent dog. I've had plenty of fosters that were crated and rotated in some aspect - maybe they couldn't be in the yard with a specific dog, maybe they couldn't be inside with anybody, etc. etc.... and a handful or two that were cool with everyone. It's a learning experience, and you're helping out a dog at the same time. The more you know, the more you can avoid that heartbreak of having permanent dogs that don't get along.
For instance, when Frag gets back, I know **** well that I cannot just walk him into the house with Patton and say, "HEY BOYS, LET'S GET ALONG!" like I could a puppy. They'll be crated and rotated for a WHILE to get used to each other being in the house with lots of wide open space training/play in the park, etc. But I could bring in an 8 week old puppy and sit it down with no qualms. MOST "dog-friendly" dogs are going to be ok with that sort of thing, I suspect Abrams would too. But a 4 month old? It is a completely different story. Dogs that have different personalities and play styles (not bump on the log puppies) will not always get along. It's just how the cookies crumbles.
For instance, when Frag gets back, I know **** well that I cannot just walk him into the house with Patton and say, "HEY BOYS, LET'S GET ALONG!" like I could a puppy. They'll be crated and rotated for a WHILE to get used to each other being in the house with lots of wide open space training/play in the park, etc. But I could bring in an 8 week old puppy and sit it down with no qualms. MOST "dog-friendly" dogs are going to be ok with that sort of thing, I suspect Abrams would too. But a 4 month old? It is a completely different story. Dogs that have different personalities and play styles (not bump on the log puppies) will not always get along. It's just how the cookies crumbles.
I'm so unreasonably frustrated right now.
There is this little roan mare that keeps popping up on my news feed. She's nothing special, trained on barrels and started on cows. I don't know why but I NEED HER. I *NEED* HER. She just calls to me.
but alas, I cannot. I have no where to put her, no time for her, and no money to buy her.
I've been going nuts scouring OTTB rescues and such lately and while I share a lot of nice horses, I haven't felt attached like I am to this one. This is how I felt when I saw my heart horse's sale ad. I'm just really sad about it and needed to vent where nobody was like, "It's just a horse". I just really miss having a horse to go cuddle with and ride around.
There is this little roan mare that keeps popping up on my news feed. She's nothing special, trained on barrels and started on cows. I don't know why but I NEED HER. I *NEED* HER. She just calls to me.
but alas, I cannot. I have no where to put her, no time for her, and no money to buy her.
I've been going nuts scouring OTTB rescues and such lately and while I share a lot of nice horses, I haven't felt attached like I am to this one. This is how I felt when I saw my heart horse's sale ad. I'm just really sad about it and needed to vent where nobody was like, "It's just a horse". I just really miss having a horse to go cuddle with and ride around.
Ran into an old friend from a previous place of employment yesterday. Asked how he and his wife were doing along with their very sweet dog. This was my absolute favorite couple, I saw them almost every day for years. He told me that he had been diagnosed with some sort of rare cancer- no treatment options, and that he'd be dead inside about three months. Ugh. Just. Ugh. Completely broke my heart right there on the spot. f you, life.
f you, life.
I just woke up from a dream that Nina's owner decided she should come back to me, and that I was walking up the path in the yard, saw my curtains move, heard a bark, and then saw her little black and white face grinning down at me so I run upstairs.
I just woke up in my bed with the exact lighting of the dream and she's not here. Maybe I'll just start staying up so I don't have all these wonky dreams.
I just woke up in my bed with the exact lighting of the dream and she's not here. Maybe I'll just start staying up so I don't have all these wonky dreams.
I get that feeling. I saw a mare that looked just like the sweet horse I had growing up and it pulled at my heartstrings HARD. She wasn't for sale, and I couldn't have had her anyway, but it's tough to feel like there's a connection there that won't be fulfilled. I hope you get to have a horse again someday (if that's what you want).
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I'm sorry. *Hugs*
I know that feeling, but, only with dogs.
There's so many dogs that I've came across, that I'd love to have. But... That wouldn't happen. One because I do plan to go to college,and another reason is due to my parents. I wouldn't be getting a dog for at least four years. Blah. It sucks.
Then there was this Aussie...
http://bcrofmn.org/dogs/available/a-stella3.php#
I fell in love with her instantly,& unlikely most dogs... She felt like the perfect dog
I seriously had an opportunity to actually get a Dog[a Pug] but... I made the decision that I didn't a Pug,which was mostly based on looks. It's been about 2 years, since that offer.... And still regret it.
Awww I'm really sorry about Nina. But, you made the right choice, But... It may not seem like it
((((HUGS))))
*Hugs*I know that feeling, but, only with dogs.
There's so many dogs that I've came across, that I'd love to have. But... That wouldn't happen. One because I do plan to go to college,and another reason is due to my parents. I wouldn't be getting a dog for at least four years. Blah. It sucks.
Then there was this Aussie...
http://bcrofmn.org/dogs/available/a-stella3.php#
I fell in love with her instantly,& unlikely most dogs... She felt like the perfect dog
I seriously had an opportunity to actually get a Dog[a Pug] but... I made the decision that I didn't a Pug,which was mostly based on looks. It's been about 2 years, since that offer.... And still regret it.
Awww
I'm really sorry about Nina. But, you made the right choice, But... It may not seem like it((((HUGS))))
I'm sorry. *Hugs*
I know that feeling, but, only with dogs.
There's so many dogs that I've came across, that I'd love to have. But... That wouldn't happen. One because I do plan to go to college,and another reason is due to my parents. I wouldn't be getting a dog for at least four years. Blah. It sucks.
Then there was this Aussie...
http://bcrofmn.org/dogs/available/a-stella3.php#
I fell in love with her instantly,& unlikely most dogs... She felt like the perfect dog
I seriously had an opportunity to actually get a Dog[a Pug] but... I made the decision that I didn't a Pug,which was mostly based on looks. It's been about 2 years, since that offer.... And still regret it.
*Hugs*I know that feeling, but, only with dogs.
There's so many dogs that I've came across, that I'd love to have. But... That wouldn't happen. One because I do plan to go to college,and another reason is due to my parents. I wouldn't be getting a dog for at least four years. Blah. It sucks.
Then there was this Aussie...
http://bcrofmn.org/dogs/available/a-stella3.php#
I fell in love with her instantly,& unlikely most dogs... She felt like the perfect dog
I seriously had an opportunity to actually get a Dog[a Pug] but... I made the decision that I didn't a Pug,which was mostly based on looks. It's been about 2 years, since that offer.... And still regret it.
You never know, you might end up in a place in college where you can have a dog. : ) I always said I wouldn't have a dog until after college, but honestly, I had the time and money for one my junior year. Unfortunately, I had signed a lease on a no-pets apartment, so I got Hugo my senior year. You might just find that you have the time and money during college