I'm single, buttt i'm in love with a "friend" and i may be completely delusional but i'm pretending in my head that it's gonna work out one day, so i'll do him.
Is your OH the ideal you had in your head? Did you have an ideal? How do they measure up? Does their personality over-shadow the fact that they aren't Brad Pitt/female equivilant
ummmm. i was 14 when i met him. so basically he's been the ideal i measured everyone else up to for the past four years. when i was 14 and first was attracted to him, did he look like the guys i had pictures of taped to my locker? Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp and Heath Ledger? No. Did i think he was HOT? Yes.
Does his personality over-shadow the fact he's not gorgeous? Well....i think he is gorgeous. He IS gorgeous. but i think this says a lot: coming from one of those stupid internet quizzes "are you really in love?". The question was "if this person gained a lot of weight would you still be attracted to them?". I thought about it for like four seconds before realizing, yes.i want to be with him when we're 80 years old. If that means he's fat and balding and has hair growing out of his nose and ears, fine.
Do you balance everything out? don't get this question!
Would you sacrifice one very good person, for a good one who you LUSTED after hugely? helllllll no. i think this is pretty telling: i'm almost 18 years old. i am a virgin. When i met Tyler 3.5 years ago, there was no way in hell i was ready to have sex. But between then and now, there have been a lot of people i probably would have fooled around with had i not met him. Because even though we're not together, and he has no business telling me who and what i can and can not do, i don't want him to think i'm immoral, or easy, or a bad person.
nowadays, i'll see someone really hot and think "ohmygod they're really hot". but then they start talking to me or if they start flirting with me, HE IS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT. Does part of me want to get over him and just date someone else? probably. Is that going to happen? No. Not now, and until i'm sure it won't work out.