That is what i mean. Yes it is the internet, and it is sickening to read these, i know. I get so weary of the i am right you are wrong training posts that i had quit going there all together until i was nudged back. YEt i can hope that if even one person reads something i write, and tries it, and it works for them, then it wasn't a waste of my time. And if reading that i don't have money to go to the vet..(something that hit home hard last month for me..i went..and now i am struggling to survive) then let it push you to work a little harder on the home front. I believe i am a good pet owner. I believe i take good care of my animals. I cannot have another, unless my health takes a u turn for the better and that is just a dirty rotten shame. I would make a good fosterhome, but i can't do the vet bills. IF it were not for my clinic i couldn't even have Victor. What i am saying is to let the drama fall away but keep the problem in focus. I watched that horrible horrible film on google video called EARTHLINGS. I can't take a bite of hardly anything meatwise without feeling sick and i cried for two days. I kid you not, i knew it was bad, but i had no idea it was THAT BAD. It was horrible to watch and i wanted to turn it off but told myself to stop being a hypocrite. If your going to be a consumer you ought to know how those animals came about for you to consume. Looking away made it easy for me, looking at the problem made me change. We have the same problem with our human medicine. Sharing knowledge and combining our efforts will be far more beneficial and our only hope out of this money cell we have forced ourselves in. OK i will get off my soapbox i am sorry...i am becoming redundant i know.