Things have been a little stressful here. Brian got good news about his job becoming permanent and then they postponed it saying they have to wait until they are done laying people off before they can hire someone on (politics) so they extended his contract through to March which is understandable and isn't terrible news.... but that means we are still essentially in limbo and paying for our own insurance as well. We can't really make any decisions because we don't know when or if this job is ever going to come to fruition. Being in limbo is exhausting.
BUT we try not to stress about it because we are in a good position and there are people WAY worse off than this and Brian has options for new jobs if nessecary. so we are in a good place but the not knowing is just weighing on us so heavily.
After a real downer of a night for the two of us last night where we just felt crushed under the weight of this thing hanging over us we had a pretty solemn morning. Hannah and I had co op and I had forgotten about our third period Prayer room. It's a nice place to go and we have two ladies that hang out in there to just listen to you let it all out, commiserate with you, share with you their own stresses and then pray with you. WOW I'm so glad I did that. I felt SO much better after that. Just letting it out and venting to two women that I really admire and consider friends and having them pray with me really lifted my spirits and I feel so much better about the whole thing. This morning felt hopeless and this afternoon my hope was renewed and it was like a weight lifted off to just let it out.
We are still in limbo but it feels like there is a reason or a light at the end of the tunnel now