If I could get over my anxiety about leaving alone, I could probably do a day trip into the city. But just thinking about that sends me fluttering :\ I have some issues, ugh.
He did feel bad, or seemed to, that I wasn't included in it.
We've thought about moving into the city, but he hasn't been able to find a job there. He works currently at the college here. He's been unable to find any transfers though. I know he ultimately wants to move to Ottawa down the line, which I THOUGHT was the plan after all this was over, but plans change I suppose.
I just sent him a message explaining some things, asking him to try to see it from my viewpoint, and to please please not get upset at me for being upset. We're both stressed but we need to be able to talk! We've just never had to before, not like this.
I used to think living where I was in Virginia was expensive, but whoa at the prices in Oakville, and Toronto.
I can't wait to have health care so I can see someone about this anxiety. The city gives me the panic attacks, the sickness in my stomach, all of that. It's a lot for me, considering the most city I'm used to is a bunch of buildings by the oceanfront. Toronto might as well be NYC to me, haha.
I hope he answers my message soon. I know he's at work, but he gets a lot of down time and his break is soon. I hate waiting for replies, always makes me so anxious. I need a good smack in the face maybe, lol.
I'm about to call my parents and let them know what's going on. I know they won't be happy about it, it's not what they thought I was coming here for either, but maybe talking to them will help ease my mind some more. You guys have helped a lot. Didn't even need to take a valium today, which given the anxiety I've been feeling, that's a big step for me.
I sound like I should be in a padded room or something, sheesh.