Sigh...

[nicco]

Guys...maybe it doesn't matter to you but I just wanted to tell somebody...I just broke up with my bf...sigh...
I'm a little sad coz I feel sorry for him...He didn't expect that...But I had to do it...He upset me too much....Whenever I was mad at him,he wouldn't do anything to make me forgive him...And he wasn't there when I needed him...He acted like he didn't care...I couldn't go on like this...And I told him what bothered me most at him...and he wouldn't even try to do something about it.It's like I was talking to the walls...I felt sorry for him when we said goodbye...he was sad...But what could I have done?I gave him pretty many chances...And when I think of him I only can remember the bad times...and the fact that he made me mad...
Today when we met...The first minute that I saw him I had a feeling like I couldn't stand him anymore...And the whole 1 hour and a half I wanted badly to break up.I guess if I felt like this I had to do it...But I feel sorry for him...
Well...thanks for listening guys..

Kiss Kiss
Nicco

 

[Debi]

(((((HUGS))))))) you had to do what was best for YOU.....and it matters to us cause you're important!

 

[Barb04]

Sorry to hear you broke up, but know you will go on. If the relationship wasn't meant to be, then it's better for the both of you to realize this and know there is a life out there for you. You did what was best for you and for him whether he realizes it right now. If you need to talk, we're here. It's never an easy thing to go through.

 

[nicco]

Guys,thanks.I knew I could count on you.It means so much to me.Lots of love and kisses
Nicco

 

[smkie]

Ahhh Nicco i am sorry, maybe the best one is to come along....we shall hope!

 

[bubbatd]

I'm so sorry !!!

 

[Renee750il]

Nicco, sounds like you did exactly what you needed to do. I'm glad you didn't stay in a situation that wasn't supportive - I've done that far too often and no good ever comes of it for anyone. Maybe he will learn something from this and will be able to look back someday and thank you in his heart for opening his eyes.

There will be someone out there who deserves you . . .

 

[nicco]

Thank you all...But why does it still hurts inside?Why do I feel guilty about all this?I'm almost crying....And I don't know why.I thought this will make me feel better.At first it really did...but now...Well I guess I'll have to stop thinking about this,about him...
Thanks again guys for everything!
You rock!!!

Kiss Kiss
Nicco

 

[Renee750il]

You're grieving, Nicco. It's a death of something that has been an important part of your life and it's natural - and healthy - to grieve over its passing. Go ahead and cry; it helps and it's nothing to be ashamed of or give you a reason to doubt that you did the best thing for both of you.

 

[Barb04]

Give yourself time; you'll start to feel a little better each day!

 

[nicco]

Thank you guys..Actually I feel better...I think it hurt the idea of not having a boyfriend anymore...I don't know...But today at work my coworkers made me laugh all day and that took my mind off him and I didn't think of him...
Thank you again for being here for me...It's so nice to have somebody to talk to when you need...It means a lot to me.You are really special!!!
Kiss Kiss
Nicco

 

[Renee750il]

Now, to the important subjects, lol! How is the elegant Amira doing?

 

[nicco]

LOL.The elegant amira is doing fine..she's waiting for me to take her out for her walk...
But...I didn't tell you (I think).She has a big lump on her neck and it's very hard at touching....you can cover it with your hand...I have to take her to the vet and take her a...I don't know how to say it in english...it's like an x-ray...it's the thing you do to see the sex of the baby when a woman is pregnant...Anyway..I have to take her to the vet...I took her an x-ray and tumour is out of the question...Maybe it's the thyroid...But I do hope it's nothing serious..
And Smeagol is fine..he is getting more fat each day LOL..
I'm sad that my mom is gone though...she'll be back in october.I really miss her..Well..
Thanks Renee for asking
Kisses
Nicco

 

[roni]

Nicco - I envy you so much. I am engaged and have been for over a year and half. He is such a sweet heart but I think that I have fallen out of love with him. I am so confused. I love him as a friend but not as a lover. I don't know what to do and I feel as though I am stuck. He lives with me in my house so if we were to break up he would be without a place to live. I don't know if any of this sounds familar to you or if anyone has any advise but I am just not happy in this relationship. I feel so guilty because he does so much for me. Sorry Nicco...I don't mean to add to your problems. I hope you are doing better today and continue to do so. Did ya'll remain friends?

 

[Barb04]

How is Amira? When will you be going to the vet? I'm hoping it turns out to be nothing much. Please keep us updated.

 

[oc_spirit]

Awww Nicco by the sounds of it you did the right thing and what you're feeling is perfectly normal. Within a few days you'll be back to normal and having fun constantly once again

Roni, relationships have a tendency to go in waves throughout time. Sometimes you're madly in love and at other times, it's a little stagnant. It's important during the stagnant periods to stop and remind yourself what you like about him and how good he is for you. If there's nothing you can think of THEN pehaps it's time to call it to a peaceful end. Maybe he couls still live with you as a room mate until he at least gets his own place? Sometimes it takes a little time apart before you remember and realize how much you really do love him and need him

 

[roni]

oc spirit...thank you for the very sound advice. i think you are exactly right. he is such a good person and so good to me. maybe i just need some time to myself. i am going to try to go away this weekend alone and really do some soul searching. thanks again!

 

[Richie12345]

I'm glad you broke up. You shouldn't have gone through all of that, you did the right thing. He failed to try and improve, meaning you guys were never going to have a serious relationship... With something like that, I would think the sooner the better... He finally realize there are other fish in the sea, and you will get a great bf... Anyways, I'm sure there are people you can talk to about this...

 

[nicco]

I've spoken to my ex every evening since we broke up...and that's becoz he always contacted me on yahoo messenger...And he told me that he feels so bad...and that he misses me so much and that he didn't realize what he had till he lost me...He is really messed up...I don't know...I'm thinking of giving him another chance...but I hope it isn't another mistake...I won't let him know this becoz I want to know what he is willing to do to win me back...I'm curious.

And now another thing.Today I was feeling so good for thinking that when I come home from work I'll go straight to bed and have a goooooood sleep coz I was so tired.But I didn't get the chance to do that.Why..do you ask?Becoz my door was blocked...LOL and I couldn't get inside the house..What badluck...And I was so looking forward to get in bed and have a good sleep...*sigh* I called my dad to come and help me get inside the house...And he solved the problem..Amira had been barking all that time.Oh and let me tell you something funny!It cracked me up!When my dad managed to open the door, he forced it a little and slamed the door open and that moment Amira got scared and took off running in the house.It was so hilarious!!!I think that (God forbidd) some burgler would brake our house she'd be the first running away.I couldn't stop laughing...it was so funny!!!!!LOL
Well...that's it for today guys

Kiss Kiss
Nicco

 

[Barb04]

I agree that you shouldn't be too eager or else he will feel like he doesn't have to change to begin the relationship again. Take it slow and do what you feel is best for you.

Amira is so sweet.