Been to the hospital. Everything sucks.

[Backward_Cinderella]

Mom had her surgery today. They removed what the could of the tumor (now known as tumors) in her lungs. There is a theory that there may be more, smaller ones lurking about in there.
I stayed at the hospital with her for nine hours before dad came and switched shifts with me. I feel like a little kid who's been left at the baby sitters. I didn't want to leave my mommy.
She's so sick and frail looking, and every time she coughs it hurts her. I can't stand watching her being in pain. And I have to go back to work tomorrow. I don't know if I can face it.
She's going to have to have chemotherapy. If she has to shave her head, you'll get to see bald pictures of me, too. I don't want her to have to go it alone.
I swear if I could, I'd take the cancer and transfer it to my lungs. Nobody in this world deserves cancer, and my mom is very last on the list.
I'm so scared and confused. I want my mom to see us get married, and to be there when we adopt our first kids, and help me through all the newly wed bs that everyone goes through. I can't lose her now.
And I can't stop crying. Someone distract me for a while, please?

 

[nancy2394]

I am so sorry. Cancer is such an awful thing to have to deal with. You will have to focus on helping your mom through the post op recovery phase and then through her chemo days. She will have to rely on you to get her through this. Take one day at a time and help her live it to the fullest. Have they given any kind of prognosis? I'm probably not doing such a good job of distracting you... I'm sorry.

It's okay to be scared and confused. Your mom is probably feeling the same way. You will get through this. Let her know everyday how much you love her. ((((HUGS)))))

 

[Backward_Cinderella]

I'm not entirely sure about the prognosis. Nobody tells me anything. The most I can tell you is that its stage four. Beyond that I don't know.

 

[nancy2394]

How much do you want to know?

 

[Backward_Cinderella]

Everything possible. But nobody really seems to think I'm important enough to know whats going on.

 

[nancy2394]

Everything possible. But nobody really seems to think I'm important enough to know whats going on.

I can explain things to you, I just want to make sure you really want to know everything. If you still want to know I will private message you... just let me know. ((((HUGS)))))

 

[Backward_Cinderella]

Please do, Nancy. I I should be able to read it tonight, my contacts are stuck in my eyes because I've been up for so long, but I know better than to even attempt sleeping. And Aaron isn't even off work yet.

 

[showpug]

I am so, so sorry. What your family is going through is horrible and my prayers are with you.

 

[nancy2394]

Okay, I'll send you a PM in a minute

 

[Toller_08]

I am so, so sorry. What a terrible thing you and your family are going through... I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts and hoping for the best. ((((HUGS))))

 

[Renee750il]

I doubt I can distract you . . . I don't think anything will, truthfully . . . but we're here, and we care a great deal and we'll be here through the whole of it - whatever happens.

And cry all you need to. We'll cry right along with you.

 

[Zoom]

I am beyond sorry for you BC...(((((((((HUGS)))))))) for you and your family.

 

[Mayasmydobe]

**hugs** I have no words to express how sorry I am that you and your family have to go through this. I'll hold you all in my thoughts.

 

[iwantmypup]

Hi,


((Hugs)) I am really really sorry to hear this. It's so hard to see somebody love...especially somebody so close, to go through pain like this. I really hope she gets well. If you ever need to talk you can talk to me.

Take care..best wishes and thoughts going to you are your family.

-Ali

 

[Backward_Cinderella]

Thanks everyone. I feel like crap so I'm going to go try to go to bed. I just don't know what else to do with myself.

 

[Zoom]

Sleep is good. PM me anytime you want to though.

 

[ACooper]

(((((((HUGS)))))))))

I wish I had something to say that would help, but alas I do not.

As others have said, we are here and have pretty good shoulders to cry on if you need them.......my PM box is open too.

 

[Sunnierhawk0]

Im so sorry for what your having to go thru.

We are here for you, day or night.

((hugs))

 

[drmom777]

I was so sorry to read this. I know you are a strong woman, and will be there for your mom. This is one of those things that those of us not going through it right now can't understand the horrors of, but we can be there to provide information and support. Make sure you take time for yourself, time to relax and think, time to do whatever helps you in other stressful situations, so you can be there for her when she needs you.

Life is just unfair.

 

[smkie]

(((((((((((((((((hugs And Hugs And Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))