Hun, don't react so harshly to your size - it's only a number. It's important not to measure yourself against other people especially when it comes to waist sizes and body weight. I used to do that and ended up losing a lot of weight (the wrong way). Then it got pointed out to me that the reason I'd never get down to the itsy bitsy sizes like some of the other girls is cause no matter how much weight you lose, your hip bones done come closer together. I was also comparing my weight with other people but I also learned that this is wrong because the people I was comparing with were couch potatos who never did anything, so the little weight that was on them was weak muscle and fat. I on the other hand am always active and doing stuff so I have more muscle mass (which is heavier than fat) meaning I could be the exact same size as them, but I'd still WEIGH more. My new motto - Be healthy, be happy