I guess at this point it would do not good to give up the pup. You would only feel unhappy and guilty for the kids which would make your existing depression that much worse.
You are right to not look back at what might have been. Backpeddling never helps
I know that certain things can trigger depression as I have had this happen to me at different times in my life. Moving to the middle of nowhere and being two and a half hours away from my son has been one of them.Needless to say we are moving closer to him soon as our house sells
At least I know what triggered my depression this time which makes it a little easier to fix. Your depression was probably triggered by the dog but it isnt really the dog itself but maybe what it represents to your uncouncious mind.
Councilling would help you immensely to find out what that is .I have heard hypnotherapy is good too.
Actually the dog might help you through it as dogs are used for therapy and such for many people.They are brought into homes where elderly people are lonely and feeling isolated. They lower BP when petted and it does help to care for them as it takes you out of yourself a bit.
Taking them for a walk gets you out of the house and walking is good exercise which helps with depression
They love unconditionally as well.
You have people on here as well that are always ready to help and offer friendship so know help and support are as close as your cp
All the best to you. I bet your pup is adorable too.
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