Hey i get to visit for one night

[smkie]

Angela came over with her puter and left it for the night or the weekend..not sure which..tonight tho..wow do i have pages and pages to catch up on. I have a long puter story i am sure no one wants to here so to make it short new puter by next week for sure. I missed everyone. Now that Aaron isn't here 99 percent of the time i have had to get use to being alone for literally the first time in my life..very very good for the art. I have finally finished up in rockland and can return to working on packs on wheels. My goal is to finish it for the Year of the Dog show in the art forum...(will i be the only one? hope not, i will be embarrassed) so sunnypup, richie, Babyblue loveforpits..even a little sketch whimper whine? So back to the paint..yipppppeeee i get to take my breaks and see my friends! Wahooooo I am happy!


forgot to add..has anyone had a cyst removed from their pituitary(sp?) gland? my mri report said i have one and that is why i have felt so bad and so tired. They are going to do one more mri to get a better look. After the tmj surgeries i am simply out of brave. My niece had a tumor (cushing's disease) in the same place and i am afraid i had graphic discriptions of what she went thru via my mother (she loves to delve in graphic details) and i feel sorta..GULP! I dont wantttttttttta do this.

 

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Smkiiiiieee!!!!!!!

 

[juliefurry]

I missed your posts. It's good to have you back, even if it is for a little bit. How are you, and Aaron, holding up?

 

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SMKIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

post pics and stories!!!!

 

[smkie]

crazzzzy..i don't even know how to feel. I am just blown away by the meaness of people. Now Brownie has a new boyfriend (baby born nov 30) and posted it on her on line diary so Aaron knows it isn;t just rumour. His best friend from grade school, jr high and scouts. He has yet to see Frankie (me too) (my mom and Hyia as well) they are playing the full hand of bs. Including getting a hearing for an exparta (i don't know how to spell it) which is insane because he didn't go to the hospital, called only a couple times trying to find out about Franki, never went over there and has had no other contact. They accused me, his friends Angela and David of all kinds of things..just about the lowest and every word of it was a lie. I have met a lot of low lifes..but the DMS take it to a new extreme.

 

[smkie]

HEY BLUE>>(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) i missed u all so bad i am almost ashamed to say how bad.....your my family for real !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as to how i am holding up..i am in stunned mode.. between the mri (that does explain why i have felt so terribly tired, i was beginning to wonder if i had cancer because that was how Jim started out) not brave at all about this...and worrying about AAron..lots to worry about there..weighs about a million tons worth of worry...i just paint and try not to think about any of it but Aaron and his situation creeps on the subconcious as well i think..it is just always there.
Jory, my grandson, turned one year old. I watched him the other night for four hours. He is a dream boy. HE doesn't gripe or complain..he plays so nicely and loves to study my face and what i am doing. (i paint he watches and has his own brush to "paint" with...he just smiles so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!! he never cried not once the whole time. He is very quiet too!

 

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How is Aaron doing with all the dramma??

 

[juliefurry]

That is really messed up and I feel very bad for Aaron and Franki. I can not believe how ignorant people can be. Hopefully at court Aaron can prove he wants to be Franki's dad and can get some sort of visitation. This Brownie sounds like a real piece of work too, the new guy she's with too. I don't know what kind of jerk would start dating the mother of his friend's baby right after she had the baby! It reminds me of the situation between my husband and his ex-wife though and I am so sympathetic to you guys for having to go through this.

 

[blue]

crazzzzy..i don't even know how to feel. I am just blown away by the meaness of people. Now Brownie has a new boyfriend (baby born nov 30) and posted it on her on line diary so Aaron knows it isn;t just rumour. His best friend from grade school, jr high and scouts. He has yet to see Frankie (me too) (my mom and Hyia as well) they are playing the full hand of bs. Including getting a hearing for an exparta (i don't know how to spell it) which is insane because he didn't go to the hospital, called only a couple times trying to find out about Franki, never went over there and has had no other contact. They accused me, his friends Angela and David of all kinds of things..just about the lowest and every word of it was a lie. I have met a lot of low lifes..but the DMS take it to a new extreme.

OMG WTF!!!!!!

I missed this post somehow. Thats unimanagable! How can people be that shallow cruel and just plain inhumane??!!

A friend of mine recently got to meet his dad, he is 26 years old.

 

[smkie]

I told aAron he has to decide and decide now what kind of father he will be..i said do not start the relationship get her attached to you and then fade out and break her heart..if you are going to do that...let her go now..and if you do decide to be where they don 't want you to be..because it is the right thing to do as Frankie's bio dad..make yourself worthy of being ther..be there for her, for always..and do it right...i am pretty black and white about this..it's those grey areas that break children's hearts. Mom babysat a lot..a whole lot of children and i saw this over again and my own father stopped loving me at 5..i was 22 before i could accept he simply not only doesn't love me..but has 0 interest as well. I never cross his mind so why is he crossing mine so much and why does it hurt so bad..i told Aaron don't you do that to her. The worst part i think is coming down the road. What will they tell Frankie when she wants to know who i am..what that family they say is so bad really like..and hopefully one day i will get to be her grandmother even if she is 20..but my mother will be long gone by that time..the GG that has baby magic and bakes nice pumpkin cupcakes for granchildren along with the zillion other lovely gestures she makes for the grandbabies in her life. She lives less the 5 minutes from the trailer yet they never called her and she is not invited over to see. Gg has never bounced a check..had a traffic ticket..done anything wrong ( i swear on a stack of bibles and Vic and Mary';s heads as well) that is the truth. Why can't she see Frankie?

 

[scob89]

Hey hey welcome back Smkie even if it is only for one night.

 

[smkie]

it wont be long now..my new puter first of the week and my life can get back to normal. It has been very strange tho without it. How you doing scobe whatcha working on? hows the peacock babies..i will draw them one day..i have sketches somewhere..

 

[juliefurry]

I told aAron he has to decide and decide now what kind of father he will be..i said do not start the relationship get her attached to you and then fade out and break her heart..if you are going to do that...let her go now..and if you do decide to be where they don 't want you to be..because it is the right thing to do as Frankie's bio dad..make yourself worthy of being ther..be there for her, for always..and do it right...i am pretty black and white about this..it's those grey areas that break children's hearts. Mom babysat a lot..a whole lot of children and i saw this over again and my own father stopped loving me at 5..i was 22 before i could accept he simply not only doesn't love me..but has 0 interest as well. I never cross his mind so why is he crossing mine so much and why does it hurt so bad..i told Aaron don't you do that to her. The worst part i think is coming down the road. What will they tell Frankie when she wants to know who i am..what that family they say is so bad really like..and hopefully one day i will get to be her grandmother even if she is 20..but my mother will be long gone by that time..the GG that has baby magic and bakes nice pumpkin cupcakes for granchildren along with the zillion other lovely gestures she makes for the grandbabies in her life. She lives less the 5 minutes from the trailer yet they never called her and she is not invited over to see. Gg has never bounced a check..had a traffic ticket..done anything wrong ( i swear on a stack of bibles and Vic and Mary';s heads as well) that is the truth. Why can't she see Frankie?

I would answer you but you really can't understand WHAT is going through those girl's mind (plus I don't think I would be allowed to use that graphic of language on this website). We are going through the same thing right now though, I am always here feel free to pm me to vent. I'm sure Aaron will make the right choice and will either decide to be there for her or decide to let her go. Just support whatever choice he makes don't make him thing he made the wrong choice.

 

[scob89]

it wont be long now..my new puter first of the week and my life can get back to normal. It has been very strange tho without it. How you doing scobe whatcha working on? hows the peacock babies..i will draw them one day..i have sketches somewhere..

I've been ok. Left the forum for awhile and came back like 5 min. before you did. I'm currently working on a video with one of my freinds. I made a thread about it. The peacock babies are still alive and getting bigger and are dumber than a box of nails. lol

 

[smkie]

heehee about the peacocks. I had two ducks growing up..well three but a raccoon took my drake. One duck was really mine and the other's mom's anyway i have always had an image in my mind i want to paint (along with a zillion others) but i hope i do get to it..i call it ladies in the garden ..the two ducks..one a white domestic and the other a mallard hen cross..rooting around under a lilac bush in the twilight with lightning bugs catching one's attention. sometimes i have images that roll around my head for years but i do eventually get to it.

 

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I would love to see any of those images.

You and Aaron just keep your head up...don't let the terrorists win and make sure you use everyone one of the legal rights and services available to you to make sure that Frankie knows the better half of her lineage.

 

[smkie]

we have a great deal to offer Frankie..besides love..mom and i have music, no one in the world is a better first piano teacher then my mother. She taught me when i was five and Aaron as well..and of course the piano is a large part of the female side..Mypy sings like an angel too. Then i have the art, and the child experience..Hyia would be a loving cousin and living close could share a strong bond with Frankie as she grows. They don't even consider this..they think a baby is property..thiers. I am not going to fight with them..not now..not ever. When Aaron sees the baby i will and then i will let time work the rest of the wrinkles out. I just pray i am here and healthy when Frankie gets old enough to make her own way in the world..i will be as much for her then as i would be now. Right now she is just busy being a baby and my being involved would be mostly pleasure on my end. When she becomes a teenager, their influence will bounce off her like all parents do all teens. She will be her own person. I hope i will be there then if not now.I will not play tug of war with a baby..will not cause the emotional she says they say whats the truth who's to know..crap if waiting will spare her that.. i will wait.

 

[juliefurry]

I think that is the best to do. I hate when my husband and his ex-wife argue and fight infront of the boys and ofcourse he can't help it because she will fight with him and even if she's on the phone will make sure the boys are in the same room to hear her say all this horrible stuff about their father. I hope things work on in your favor and you guys do get to see her.

 

[smkie]

my daughter went thru that..her dad told her all kinds of stupid damaging untruths and lies..even said he didn't hit me that big ordeal when she was 3 and saw the whole thing..he said it never happened..screwed up her head and our relationship so badly fortuantely we recovered but it was pure d he double toothpicks..these dms are capable of using a child that way..for sure they are using Bronwyn that way and i won't be a part of it. I would never put Frankie in a position where she would have to be exposed to such crap..but they will probably do it to someone else..they got entirely too much pleasure out of man busting here, my family is just part of the package. they feed on drama like sharks or hyeanas or i dunno vultures

 

[angela]

yeah, i'm hoping things get better, and aaron decides to do the right thing and push to see his child... when my parents got divorced, the judge decided on "reasonable visitation"... but my mom wouldn't let me go with him, and she had me brain-washed into not wanting to see him... somedays she'd keep me from school and tell me if i went my dad would kidnap me, and i've had my social security number memorized since i was about 7 for that purpose... my dad refused to pay child support since he couldn't see me, and was sentenced to spend 7 years in prison... he ended up being in there for about 3 years, and now is out on parole... since he got released, i've talked to him over the phone quite a bit and have seen him in person maybe 5 times in the past 8 years... it's so hard to try to see him as my father now... even when my parents were married he was an over the road truck driver, so i only saw him 2-3 times a month... he's kinda just a stranger who looks like me... i'm trying my best now and am truly resentful of my mother who took it out on me for years that she was mad at my dad... now my dad has many health problems, and he may not be around for much longer... there's no way i can make back the lost time... there's still hope for frankie... i think brownie could be a good mom, and aaron a good dad... but bronwyn needs to think of what's best for her child and end this power-struggle...