So it's taken me a while to sit down and write this out...
We moved into the new house around the first of October, and life fully fell apart towards the end....
I left, and am staying with friends until I get my own place, sometime soon....
Since losing my first home and pets... and even then feeling my marriage and family slipping away from me, I began to behave irrationally myself.... Some of my friends, and even some of you on here recognized that I was behaving with "hoarder" like rationalization, trying to fill all the holes in my life (heart) with every pet that came along.... In a short span of time I has Larry, Sophie (who went to stay with friends) Henry, Koda, Lily, and ChickaD, plus the cats, and 3 parrots!! It's extremely hard for me to admit I was doing this, and trying to fill holes in my life with pets that would "have" to love me even if I felt like no one else did.... If it wasn't for Lynn and some other close friends I may have ended up like the lady on the Simpsons... And that's terrifying to me...
I also ended up needing help in other ways once I forced myself to see that a good friend, was not such a good friend after all... I can't believe after all these years I became the cliched wife with a friend with ulterior motives... It's a slap and one that I'm not sure I'll get over anytime soon....
I have been seeing a therapist, whose helped me look at things a whole lot differently, and realize that my world is not coming to an end....
Critter update:
I have ChickaD, and will have Larry when I get my home, plus I will be bringing Grump the older African Grey I rescued... And that's it for me...
Koda (Jonah's dog) and Lily (Jeff's dog) will stay with them, they're also keeping the cats and the young Grey and Teil...
Henry has gone to a new home, against my wishes and without my permission and that stung large.... He was mine and the one dog next to Diamond that had worked his way into my very soul... My daughter offered to care for him until I got my home, and then decided he was fighting with her Hound and placed him without clearing it with me first.... I know they thought they were helping, but losing him of all the dogs, did NOT help....
Anyhow lol I'm rambling....
So here's a couple pictures of my own crew:
We moved into the new house around the first of October, and life fully fell apart towards the end....
I left, and am staying with friends until I get my own place, sometime soon....
Since losing my first home and pets... and even then feeling my marriage and family slipping away from me, I began to behave irrationally myself.... Some of my friends, and even some of you on here recognized that I was behaving with "hoarder" like rationalization, trying to fill all the holes in my life (heart) with every pet that came along.... In a short span of time I has Larry, Sophie (who went to stay with friends) Henry, Koda, Lily, and ChickaD, plus the cats, and 3 parrots!! It's extremely hard for me to admit I was doing this, and trying to fill holes in my life with pets that would "have" to love me even if I felt like no one else did.... If it wasn't for Lynn and some other close friends I may have ended up like the lady on the Simpsons... And that's terrifying to me...
I also ended up needing help in other ways once I forced myself to see that a good friend, was not such a good friend after all... I can't believe after all these years I became the cliched wife with a friend with ulterior motives... It's a slap and one that I'm not sure I'll get over anytime soon....
I have been seeing a therapist, whose helped me look at things a whole lot differently, and realize that my world is not coming to an end....
Critter update:
I have ChickaD, and will have Larry when I get my home, plus I will be bringing Grump the older African Grey I rescued... And that's it for me...
Koda (Jonah's dog) and Lily (Jeff's dog) will stay with them, they're also keeping the cats and the young Grey and Teil...
Henry has gone to a new home, against my wishes and without my permission and that stung large.... He was mine and the one dog next to Diamond that had worked his way into my very soul... My daughter offered to care for him until I got my home, and then decided he was fighting with her Hound and placed him without clearing it with me first.... I know they thought they were helping, but losing him of all the dogs, did NOT help....
Anyhow lol I'm rambling....
So here's a couple pictures of my own crew:
I'm glad you've got some support and love and animals. I hope 2014 is a better year! Maybe this is just the chaos that comes before a great change.
