The musing thread

[k9krazee]

I learned something about myself this weekend, if I can't have something - I want it. This is probably a personality flaw, but I'm OK with it.

I just came here to say the same thing.

DH & I are thinking about buying something...I've been wishy washy for the last month. Yesterday we received some potentially bad news about the situation and now I WANT it. So badly. It's terrible and I'm going be devastated if it doesn't work out (which is all too likely). Ugh.

 

[teacuptiger]

Please tell me I'm not the only one who has ever wanted to hug a character in a book. Cuz the entirety of Origin, I have wanted to hug Daemon Black so badly. I mean, turn him into a living breathing being, just so I can hug him.

Even more so than the first or second time I read the book, because I know what happens in the last book.

 

[amberdyan]

Please tell me I'm not the only one who has ever wanted to hug a character in a book. Cuz the entirety of Origin, I have wanted to hug Daemon Black so badly. I mean, turn him into a living breathing being, just so I can hug him.

Even more so than the first or second time I read the book, because I know what happens in the last book.

PSH, I've wanted to a lot more than hug a character in a book.... lol.

I know how you feel though. I love good books, the characters are so real for me.

 

[PlottMom]

PSH, I've wanted to a lot more than hug a character in a book.... lol.

I know how you feel though. I love good books, the characters are so real for me.

Right there with you.

 

[teacuptiger]

Good to know I'm not alone, lol. Daemon Black is honestly one character that I would love to make real. I mean, even Harry Potter, yeah, I'd love if that were reality and all, but I wish I had a Daemon Black.

Although, I wouldn't take Katy from him, but I just want my own Daemon even if it's just so I can hug him.

 

[teacuptiger]

Uh... Heh heh... When ordering a finch feeder online, make sure you stare at the size of what you are ordering and think about it for a sec.

Because they make those things insanely long and my feeder is almost to the ground because I am stupid.

On the plus side, can you imagine how many finches I will have?! Down side is nyjer seed costs an extravagant amount.

This was a bad idea but I don't actually care because I love birds. Except for red winged blackbirds.

 

[Annabell]

How have I gone this long without a pair of Chacos?

 

[amberdyan]

How have I gone this long without a pair of Chacos?

Haha, agreed! I love chacos.

 

[Annabell]

Haha, agreed! I love chacos.

Literally the best. So excited for WW rafting and backpacking and hiking this summer with these babies! (and I am currently regretting that they did not come backpacking with me in Big Sur, but I guess that's an excuse to go back, right? )

 

[teacuptiger]

The oddness of my dreams scares me sometimes.

I had this horrible dream last night that I was doing laundry on these really weird machines and couldn't really figure them out. So, I ended up flooding this entire house with foam.

Somehow, my mom was so angry that she called the cops on me. And other things happened, but basically the FBI carted me away because it was this whole big thing and I was in so much trouble. Over foam. I mean, no physical violence or anything, just like, "OMG FOAM EVERYWHERE THIS IS SO ILLEGAL"

I hope that this isn't a sign that I'm losing my mind or something.

 

[stardogs]

Could you be pregnant? In the last few weeks my dreams have gotten crazy weird and that's apparently a pregnancy 'thing'.

 

[teacuptiger]

Nah, I've just always had really weird dreams. Sometimes there's just some that are really.... very outstandingly odd, lol.

Like, there was this couple of months where I'd have this recurring dream of a polar bear. That is literally all the dream was- a polar bear standing on ice. Not doing anything other than standing there.

I'm just glad to be safe doing laundry today, I haven't made the washer overflow with foam, lol. Yet.

 

[*blackrose]

Oh, the irony.

I've had people tripping over themselves to adopt my black kittens, but no interest in the tabby or the orange boys.

Huh. That I was not expecting. Figured the orange ones would be the first to go!

 

[teacuptiger]

How do you say goodbye to someone who is now a ghost to you, but isn't actually dead? It's not like I can have a funeral, but I don't have a clue if I will ever get closure or be able to heal from this.

Yet again, everything in my life has been a lie. And this time, I have no one. No one to tell me what small parts of my life have not been a lie.

All I want to do is erase the past so that I would wouldn't have this ghost hanging over me. Gods, I sound like somebody in a fiction book. I feel like somebody fictional.

Fell into another hole again,
It's like I'm sleepwalking

 

[Beanie]

It's not like I can have a funeral, but I don't have a clue if I will ever get closure or be able to heal from this.

You will. I promise you will.
There is one person in my life, if I could just drag everything about him to a trash can in my brain, then hit erase... Are you sure you want to delete forever? Yes... Yes, I want to delete it forever.
But it's not the awful, raw, aching misery it was when we were first over, when he first left my life. Weeks and months go by without thinking of him. Most of the people in my life don't even remember his name anymore, he is so far removed. It's only a select few who still remember him, who remind me of him now and again (not on purpose, just by nature.) And I only really mourn the lie, because it was lies. How can I mourn a person who never really existed anyway? And I feel sorry for him, because f*^% am I an awesome friend, and he doesn't get the benefit of that anymore. I am really not the one missing out, not missing out on anything but more lies, more fantasy, more hurt, while he is missing out on me.
I think I got the better end of that deal, and so did you. it will take time and oh yes, it is painful... But it will get better... You will heal. And you will move forward.

 

[teacuptiger]

You will. I promise you will.
There is one person in my life, if I could just drag everything about him to a trash can in my brain, then hit erase... Are you sure you want to delete forever? Yes... Yes, I want to delete it forever.
But it's not the awful, raw, aching misery it was when we were first over, when he first left my life. Weeks and months go by without thinking of him. Most of the people in my life don't even remember his name anymore, he is so far removed. It's only a select few who still remember him, who remind me of him now and again (not on purpose, just by nature.) And I only really mourn the lie, because it was lies. How can I mourn a person who never really existed anyway? And I feel sorry for him, because f*^% am I an awesome friend, and he doesn't get the benefit of that anymore. I am really not the one missing out, not missing out on anything but more lies, more fantasy, more hurt, while he is missing out on me.
I think I got the better end of that deal, and so did you. it will take time and oh yes, it is painful... But it will get better... You will heal. And you will move forward.

*hugs* Thank you.

 

[*blackrose]

Know what is kind of depressing?

At the end of this deployment, Michael and I will have spent almost as much time apart as we have been married. Over 25% of our time together, since we first started dating, has been us being essentially thousands of miles away from one another.

That's just really weird to think about.

 

[Melle]

Anyone ever get creeped out when you catch one of your pets just watching you?

I'm chilling on my bedroom floor and I look up and Tobi (cat) is watching me while he dozes off like three feet away. There's some piercing about the awareness and intelligence in this cat's eyes. I'm used to animals only looking at me when I've got food or they want something or when I, well, attract attention to myself.

But I always catch this cat watching me and his behavior is so strikingly self and world aware that I get almost weirded out when I look back at him cause I just wanna know what he's thinking, especially when he's got an expression on his face directed at me.

Cats, man.

 

[frostfell]

Anyone ever get creeped out when you catch one of your pets just watching you?

I'm chilling on my bedroom floor and I look up and Tobi (cat) is watching me while he dozes off like three feet away. There's some piercing about the awareness and intelligence in this cat's eyes. I'm used to animals only looking at me when I've got food or they want something or when I, well, attract attention to myself.

But I always catch this cat watching me and his behavior is so strikingly self and world aware that I get almost weirded out when I look back at him cause I just wanna know what he's thinking, especially when he's got an expression on his face directed at me.

Cats, man.

I want to know what they call us. I want to know what they call each other. I want to know what they call themselves. What if Kitty thinks her name is something different and she hates that word? This is the **** that keeps me up at night

 

[PerformanceDog]

Know what is kind of depressing?

At the end of this deployment, Michael and I will have spent almost as much time apart as we have been married. Over 25% of our time together, since we first started dating, has been us being essentially thousands of miles away from one another.

That's just really weird to think about.

I can somewhat relate, as my boyfriend and I have been fairly far apart for 2 of the 4 years we've been together. Shortly after dating, he moved to Arizona for school. After two years passed and seeing each other a couple times a year, he was done with school and moved back to minnesota.

Then several months later I moved about an hour and a half south. But we still see each other 1-2 times a week so I don't really count that as long distance. But, we just signed a lease to move in together in July! I'm a little nervous as we aren't used to being with each other 24/7.