El I know and I know how everyone feels here about animals I have had them since I was 1 yrs old and I am 39 that is 38 yrs of loving my babies and I can only imagine the heartbreak I would feel if I had to look into the eyes of one of my babies only to leave them behind. We put down my boxer Dakota this last march he was 14 yrs old, he was my brothers and when my brother passed that was all that was left of him and I was darned if I was going to see him go somewhere else so I have had him for 3 yrs before he was put down and that was the most gut wrenching feeling to stay with him and watch his little heartbeat just slip away knowing that I wouldnt see that wonderful and beautiful baby anymore. Sorry I took a left turn there,