I think I'm going to have to quit my job. I love the people, and the hours give me a lot of freedom, and I even like and get along greatly with most of my co-workers... except for two.
I just can't do this anymore. I am so fed up with being angry and depressed and having anxiety. I can't even fall asleep like a normal person anymore. I wish things were different, I wish the boss wasn't friends with these two people so maybe I'd have a chance of talking to my boss about this and maybe not working with them or something, but I'm not willing to walk into any more train wrecks.
Also, playing the submissive, quite person when I really just want them to shut up and stop acting like children kills me. Gods. I actually really care about my residents (and caring is not any easy thing for me). I'm going to miss them so much.
Is being happy more often than every once in a while too much to bloody ask? With everything else that's been happening recently, I can't deal with this anymore. I think I've carried this out long enough. 3 years is enough. I've been more stubborn and stronger than them for three whole years. I'm not going to hate myself and drive myself crazy anymore.
There has to still be good in this world somewhere. I just need to find it.