So, my one-year lease is up for renewal on April 30th. I already decided to put plans in place to move in with Marshall by May. I was going to give my notice on March 1st. Already doing a mental keep/toss for Kijiji.
So today I get a tenancy termination notice. For April 30th. Nothing to do with me, and it wasn't entirely unexpected - I was warned back in October something like this may happen once my lease was up.
So, not because the decision has changed, AT ALL... simply because the decision was changed from being in my control to being out of my control... my anxiety is skyrocketing. THROUGH THE ROOF.
I've worked through my relaxation techniques (the ones I've learned so far through therapy anyway) and they aren't working very well. The voice in my head just doesn't go away that easily when I'm faced with something like this.
I haven't had anxiety attacks this bad since we were selling the house. I won't be sleeping much, if at all, tonight, and I have a busy workday tomorrow.
It's just a big reminder. Reminding me how much I loathe having to deal with GAD every day of my life. Anxiety is stupid, illogical and I really hate having to live my life in constant worry of every little stupid thing that happens to me.
On the plus side, SURPRISE CHAZ I'M MOVING IN WITH MY BOYFRIEND IN MAY.
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