The Venting Thread

[JazzyTheSibe]

It just really sucks that I don't enjoy anything anymore. I can never have fun, it's just... Nothing. I have no joy from doing things I use to love doing. Dogs(& Jazzy) are the only things that I can actually enjoy. It just really sucks feeling like this.

Sometimes I just feel like curling up in a ball.

 

[Xandra]

I forgot to close the gate to my veggie garden and the llamas came in and ravaged it. At least it sucked to begin with!

 

[skittledoo]

I hate being in pain all the time. I've learned to live with it and just have to suck it up and get through my day. Well... It's been getting worse and it's getting harder to suck it up. I don't need more crap to make my life harder. I already have dermatillomania, anxiety disorder, panic attack disorder and I'm almost positive I have PTSD though that has not been officially diagnosed yet. I have had some really bad stuff happen in my life that I get PTSD-like episodes sometimes from. All this constant physical pain has me worried that I might also be developing fibromyalgia. My mom has fibro as do multiple other women in my family. I've written down a list of symptoms and my mom said it sounds like fibro though a lot of the symptoms could easily by symptomatic of other stuff too so who knows. All I know is I hurt every day. I live on heating pads pretty much and I am doing a lot of Epsom salt soaks hoping to ease some of the pain, but I don't know what else I can do in the meantime. I also take Tylenol but that doesn't seem to help. I don't have health insurance right now so I have to wait until we are in New Mexico to see a doctor. We are trying to make sure one of us gets a job with health insurance because we really need it.

 

[MandyPug]

So many Mosquitos. Deet isn't even deterring them. I look like I have measles. So much itchy.

 

[Ozfozz]

Getting pretty freaking sick of the hooker downstairs (okay not confirmed hooker, but she has a random assortment of men coming through her place at all hours and has no problem standing naked in her window).

She leaves the front door unlocked all the freaking time so that her "customers" can just come straight in to her place opposed to knocking and hoping she can hear them.
Now either she or her customers are leaving the door wide open. Half the time her door is left open as well.
We don't live in the safest neighbourhood, and live directly on a busy road.

Oh and 2 men were in the hallway the other night screaming at each other.

I don't feel safe.

 

[Sekah]

That sucks. I'm pretty sure you'd have grounds to complain to the landlord about doors not being secured properly. Complain enough and eventually something will be done. Maybe.

I hope you guys scrounge up enough cash to move soon.

 

[Ozfozz]

That sucks. I'm pretty sure you'd have grounds to complain to the landlord about doors not being secured properly. Complain enough and eventually something will be done. Maybe.

I hope you guys scrounge up enough cash to move soon.

I have to move back to my parents for the school year anyways, so it's just another month and a half here for me. But Josh is planning on staying until April so we can get a nicer place together once I'm done.

He handles things like this better than I do so it's not that bad for him.

I'm going to try talking to the landlord this week and seeing what can be done about the door situation.

 

[stardogs]

In most places prostitution is illegal - might the police be interested in an anonymous tip?

 

[Sekah]

In most places prostitution is illegal - might the police be interested in an anonymous tip?

This is actually a bit of a grey area right now.

 

[Laurelin]

I was outside barefoot and a mosquito bit me right on the heel bone. OMG the pain!!!! The second it bit me I yelped. I've never had a bite hurt that bad before.

 

[Ozfozz]

This is actually a bit of a grey area right now.

And I can't prove for certain that's what she's doing unfortunately.
Plus, at any given time I can go out onto my balcony and see at least one woman working the corner.

Really as long as she keeps the screaming matches to a minimum and keeps the damned doors shut, I'm not entirely bothered by it.
Though I'd like some extra locks on my own door....

 

[skittledoo]

And now I found out my boy is dead...

I've known Blue since I was a kid. He is pretty much my horse too though he spent his years with my best friend's family. He is the horse that I grew up riding. He is the horse that taught me SO much about horses in general and I loved him so much. I was really looking forward to seeing him first thing when I got back to New Mexico. I literally could not WAIT to see him. I'm so distraught right now. I can't believe he is gone and I didn't get to say goodbye. I just... can't even handle this.

Here is an old photo of me riding him nearly 10 years ago.

 

[Beanie]

You got your September in my July, Mother Nature.
And no sir, I don't like it.

 

[Izzy's Valkyrie]

Totally lame but my nails which were nice and long and pretty all had to get cut down to the quick because of a gel manicure I elected to take off at home instead of getting them done right at the salon. *sigh* Now my fingers feel funny and look horrible

 

[DJEtzel]

And now I found out my boy is dead...

I've known Blue since I was a kid. He is pretty much my horse too though he spent his years with my best friend's family. He is the horse that I grew up riding. He is the horse that taught me SO much about horses in general and I loved him so much. I was really looking forward to seeing him first thing when I got back to New Mexico. I literally could not WAIT to see him. I'm so distraught right now. I can't believe he is gone and I didn't get to say goodbye. I just... can't even handle this.

Here is an old photo of me riding him nearly 10 years ago.

I'm very sorry to hear that.

 

[*blackrose]

Biggs, my rat, is pretty much just dragging his back feet when he walks. He has some function still and he's able to push himself along with them, but that's about it. *sigh*

 

[JazzyTheSibe]

My fear of driving is seriously getting in my way. I seriously feel like I'll have panic attack if I go on the road. I freak out when I just drive in a parking lot.

You got your September in my July, Mother Nature.
And no sir, I don't like it.

Same here. It's 63 degrees here, in July. It shouldn't be that cool in July.

 

[Julee]

Send that cooldown over to CT, I want to ship our **** turtle here already. It's been too hot.

 

[Dogdragoness]

We hit our first 100 degree days earlier this week ... now that's air temperature, add to it the heat/humidity index and we're looking at 110-115.

I am not complaining one bit but it kind of sucks for the horses who I am sure wish it was cooler.

Skiddledoo I am also sorry to hear about your horse, very very sad

 

[noludoru]

It just really sucks that I don't enjoy anything anymore. I can never have fun, it's just... Nothing. I have no joy from doing things I use to love doing. Dogs(& Jazzy) are the only things that I can actually enjoy. It just really sucks feeling like this.

Sometimes I just feel like curling up in a ball.

You need to seek help from a psychiatrist. (((((HUGS))))) It gets better. I was just at the doc's this morning and I'm on new meds to hopefully combat the lows I've been having. Meds help, they get it to a manageable level so you can work through issues yourself instead of feeling helpless and trapped all the time.

Getting pretty freaking sick of the hooker downstairs (okay not confirmed hooker, but she has a random assortment of men coming through her place at all hours and has no problem standing naked in her window).

Oops. Sorry.

Seriously, get the landlord to put a 2nd lock on the door for you. That sucks.

Totally lame but my nails which were nice and long and pretty all had to get cut down to the quick because of a gel manicure I elected to take off at home instead of getting them done right at the salon. *sigh* Now my fingers feel funny and look horrible

OOH SAME. I broke the gel manicure.