The Venting Thread
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I'm awake at this ungodly hour. No one should ever be awake this early.
I have to open at work today and then run a thousand errands to get ready to leave for NJ. I'm hitting the road at the crack of dawn tomorrow and have to be at roll call for lure coursing by 8:30 am tomorrow in NJ. I'm going to be ridiculously tired I just know it.
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I have to open at work today and then run a thousand errands to get ready to leave for NJ. I'm hitting the road at the crack of dawn tomorrow and have to be at roll call for lure coursing by 8:30 am tomorrow in NJ. I'm going to be ridiculously tired I just know it.
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More boyfriend drama is fun.
Except it also has to be boyfriend drama while he's in Japan so that mean's waking up at 5 so I can talk to him after work.
Right now he either gets shipped off to spain. Or gets to work in Virginia, 7 days a week.
How awesome you know? Like it's so great that he will either be on the east coast and miserable (but close) and I'll never get to see him.
or he could be in spain (and happier) and I'll never get to see him.
What an awesome situation.
Was so happy to hear san diego was a mistake.
Now I want it back.
Like I really should've known. Like what is the use of me finding a guy I love and it being easy? Of course it wouldn't just work out. Of COURSE I don't get to see him.
My life was actually going pretty well for a hot minute. Nice to know we are back on track!
As it is now, I am surviving basically on hope and on less attention/time than one gives to the typical house plant.
I get letters, 20 minutes before he goes to work, and before he goes to bed..then it's just waiting for the weekend.
This was all worth it because hey, he comes back to this country soon. He will have weekends free! Same time zone!
and now it's ****ed.
I feel like my heart is breaking but in a way it's never been broken before.
Like, it's not that it's not working out, it's not that either of us wants to end things, it's not that I don't think we would be happy together
It's that life seems to be intent on keeping us apart.
Except it also has to be boyfriend drama while he's in Japan so that mean's waking up at 5 so I can talk to him after work.
Right now he either gets shipped off to spain. Or gets to work in Virginia, 7 days a week.
How awesome you know? Like it's so great that he will either be on the east coast and miserable (but close) and I'll never get to see him.
or he could be in spain (and happier) and I'll never get to see him.
What an awesome situation.
Was so happy to hear san diego was a mistake.
Now I want it back.
Like I really should've known. Like what is the use of me finding a guy I love and it being easy? Of course it wouldn't just work out. Of COURSE I don't get to see him.
My life was actually going pretty well for a hot minute. Nice to know we are back on track!
As it is now, I am surviving basically on hope and on less attention/time than one gives to the typical house plant.
I get letters, 20 minutes before he goes to work, and before he goes to bed..then it's just waiting for the weekend.
This was all worth it because hey, he comes back to this country soon. He will have weekends free! Same time zone!
and now it's ****ed.
I feel like my heart is breaking but in a way it's never been broken before.
Like, it's not that it's not working out, it's not that either of us wants to end things, it's not that I don't think we would be happy together
It's that life seems to be intent on keeping us apart.
Where in VA are they talking as a possibility?? DC area??? There are a few of us Chazzers that would love to see you if it's out this way.
Sorry he is going I be so far from you.
long distance is hard. Josh and I have been long distance twice now. Once was for about 6 months when we were dating and the other time was for about 3 months or so within our first year of marriage. It's hard, but definitely doable.
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Sorry he is going I be so far from you.
long distance is hard. Josh and I have been long distance twice now. Once was for about 6 months when we were dating and the other time was for about 3 months or so within our first year of marriage. It's hard, but definitely doable. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk 2
Where in VA are they talking as a possibility?? DC area??? There are a few of us Chazzers that would love to see you if it's out this way.
Sorry he is going I be so far from you. long distance is hard. Josh and I have been long distance twice now. Once was for about 6 months when we were dating and the other time was for about 3 months or so within our first year of marriage. It's hard, but definitely doable.
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Sorry he is going I be so far from you.
long distance is hard. Josh and I have been long distance twice now. Once was for about 6 months when we were dating and the other time was for about 3 months or so within our first year of marriage. It's hard, but definitely doable. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk 2
I'm feeling a bit better, got to talk to him and he just kind of talked me down, it may not be that bad. They likely won't send him to Spain
I hate when he waits til his tiny tiny break at work and then rush gives me news and leaves me like WHAT?!?!?!?!
and then It's like midnight and I'm like WELL IM NOT SLEEPING NOW SO LET ME JUST STEW OVER THIS
I wish the people I am taking care of the horses for (8) would hurry up & come back, because of this I have to get up at 4am -_- so I can walk all their horses before the track opens (6:30) so I can help OH with sending his horses to the track with the pony horse.
I am just lucky that OH is there to help me
I am just lucky that OH is there to help me
I didn't take diphenhydramine last night to help me sleep because I think I've started experiencing some side effects during my waking hours (dry mouth, drowsiness). Tossed and turned all night long, woke up three times, and now my throat is sore and I feel "bleh".
Boo.
((((hugs))))
That was one of the reasons Michael and I are getting married before he's given his orders...when he is out on deployment I obviously won't be there, but if he is going to be stationed somewhere, I sure as heck wanted the information, benefits, and resources available to move me there with him.
Boo.
((((hugs))))
That was one of the reasons Michael and I are getting married before he's given his orders...when he is out on deployment I obviously won't be there, but if he is going to be stationed somewhere, I sure as heck wanted the information, benefits, and resources available to move me there with him.
Cameron is making great process with guests in the home with the training method we setup with a trainer. I click- guests treat. She is lieing down durring sessions, is going long counts without barking or receiving feedback, and her demeaner has changed from stranger-danger to yay-lets-train!
Brother likes to joke about using Caesar Millan methods or havinging her euthed.
Not. Funny. Please god don't him **** up my dog.
Brother likes to joke about using Caesar Millan methods or havinging her euthed.
Not. Funny. Please god don't him **** up my dog.
So this week has been insane.
I turned in a revenge card on my roommate/ex and read about how she had slept with her ex/my current BF in her private livejournal. As of a week ago. I blew up, had all my stuff packed and planned on leaving for CO Friday morning. I had somewhere to go, a job to start, and Jin of all people actually offered to fund me the money to leave(of course not getting the whole story of why and what is going on). I decked it out with BF later that night, and he said he didn't do it. He had only gone to her hotel room, talked to her, and left. But it was enough for me to believe he was lying, so I stayed course. Planned the trip, Zander's needs, budgeted out expenses. I then proceeded to get completely wasted and ceased messaging him back and ignoring his calls. I don't do liars and cheats. With nothing else holding me here, I had decided to leave and had my ducks all in a row.
3:30am I get a series of text messages from her about how it was all just a set up and a lie and he didn't actually sleep with her so I shouldn't leave him. She just wanted to get back at me for ruining her relationship(lol/WTF). She just wanted me pissed at him and cause us some trouble. Apparently she never thought I would actually leave(because she thought I was a bimbo, college dropout with no plans or directions in life). Why, I have no idea. She saw how I was with Jin. I make up my mind, I act immediately. Bridge burned.
So I deck it out with him a bit more and tell him he's a GD idiot for ever putting himself in a position to make us fall victim to this. He's moved in with me for now, but I'm still considering leaving.
1) What if THIS was all a lie too? All trust completely ruined. 2) I am going to have to deal with this crazy woman for the next 10 years because of Child, knowing if I ever leave this man she wouldn't let me see him.
I don't do liars, cheats, OR crazy. So is it worth it? Kinda considering Nolu, Kels, Zoom, and peoples are a way better alternative.
And then on top of it, I'm going to have to deal with usual move things, find another place to live because this is temporary, deal with him in school, my own job, and you know...life. Everything is a mess and absolutely chaotic.
Colorado sounds way better. And the pictures Nolu posted were lovely.
I turned in a revenge card on my roommate/ex and read about how she had slept with her ex/my current BF in her private livejournal. As of a week ago. I blew up, had all my stuff packed and planned on leaving for CO Friday morning. I had somewhere to go, a job to start, and Jin of all people actually offered to fund me the money to leave(of course not getting the whole story of why and what is going on). I decked it out with BF later that night, and he said he didn't do it. He had only gone to her hotel room, talked to her, and left. But it was enough for me to believe he was lying, so I stayed course. Planned the trip, Zander's needs, budgeted out expenses. I then proceeded to get completely wasted and ceased messaging him back and ignoring his calls. I don't do liars and cheats. With nothing else holding me here, I had decided to leave and had my ducks all in a row.
3:30am I get a series of text messages from her about how it was all just a set up and a lie and he didn't actually sleep with her so I shouldn't leave him. She just wanted to get back at me for ruining her relationship(lol/WTF). She just wanted me pissed at him and cause us some trouble. Apparently she never thought I would actually leave(because she thought I was a bimbo, college dropout with no plans or directions in life). Why, I have no idea. She saw how I was with Jin. I make up my mind, I act immediately. Bridge burned.
So I deck it out with him a bit more and tell him he's a GD idiot for ever putting himself in a position to make us fall victim to this. He's moved in with me for now, but I'm still considering leaving.
1) What if THIS was all a lie too? All trust completely ruined. 2) I am going to have to deal with this crazy woman for the next 10 years because of Child, knowing if I ever leave this man she wouldn't let me see him.
I don't do liars, cheats, OR crazy. So is it worth it? Kinda considering Nolu, Kels, Zoom, and peoples are a way better alternative.
And then on top of it, I'm going to have to deal with usual move things, find another place to live because this is temporary, deal with him in school, my own job, and you know...life. Everything is a mess and absolutely chaotic.
Colorado sounds way better. And the pictures Nolu posted were lovely.
Do it. It's time you left the crazy behind and made a clean break for yourself. You deserve to be with people who care about you instead of ones who use you.
My vent: WHY DO GECKO EGGS HAVE SUCH A WIDE RANGES OF INCUBATION TIMES? The first egg can hatch anytime between now and the start of November. WHY? I just want to see a baby gecko NAO!
My vent: WHY DO GECKO EGGS HAVE SUCH A WIDE RANGES OF INCUBATION TIMES? The first egg can hatch anytime between now and the start of November. WHY? I just want to see a baby gecko NAO!
