It's Lymphoma Large Cell Type.

[noludoru]

I cried for you. Hell, I'm STILL crying for you.

That's pretty much all I've had to say. I had no idea until I saw the thread just now that she was put to sleep today. I'm just in shock. Terrible doesn't even begin to describe how awful this is.

((((((HUGS)))))) for Rebecca and Ella's Dad. . . and everyone elsewho loved her, even if we never got to meet her in person.

 

[PixieSticksandTricks]

I am so sorry Chewbecca and EllasDad. I am in tears and can't beleive she is gone so fast.

Rest In Peace sweet Ella we will never forget your beautiful face and soul .

 

[Ellas_Daddy]

Thank you everyone. I'm just so sad. Ella was my "bug". I was her main protector. And I couldn't protect her from this. I know we did what was right by her and she wouldn't want her daddy crying like a blithering baby, but it hurts like hell.

I went to wash our bedsheets and noticed her hair on the dryer from when I washed her bedding in preparation for her surgery. I wiped it up while crying. It's silly, I know. I just need to vent. No way in hell would I get through this without Rebecca. I'm uncomfortably familiar with the stages of grieving, so I know it will pass. It's been 10 years since my last dog (gorgeous black doberman named Noble) was put to sleep. Ella really hurts because I was her main protector. I know Rebecca always posted about Ella's smack-talk, but she was actually very timid at times. She never fussed about shots, pills, baths, or anything else except other dogs. She looked to us and especially me for the "ok".

We will be ok. It's just really tough.
Ben

 

[xpaeanx]

you did protect Ella. Sometimes doing the protecting is a lot harder than it's cracked up to be and it hurts like hell, but by doing right by her you were protecting her.

Ella was given a happy and loving life because of you and becca. Think of that, know how much she loved you. Keep that in your heart and let it guide you until you get to see her again.

 

[~Jessie~]

you did protect Ella. Sometimes doing the protecting is a lot harder than it's cracked up to be and it hurts like hell, but by doing right by her you were protecting her.

Ella was given a happy and loving life because of you and becca. Think of that, know how much she loved you. Keep that in your heart and let it guide you until you get to see her again.

You both gave Ella so much. Even in the end. You did the single most selfless thing by taking away her pain and letting her rest. She doesn't hurt anymore, and it's thanks to you and Rebecca.

She knows it too, I'm sure.

Rest easy, Pretty Girl.

 

[Beanie]

I don't think it's at all silly to be upset and hurt and cry. Ella was an amazing girl. Look how many of us are sad and crying and hurting right along with you guys - and we never even had the pleasure of meeting her in person. I think that speaks volumes about the weight of her loss.

 

[Zoom]

It's not at all silly to cry. I bawled for three days straight after Meisha died from lymphoma. I would almost get myself put together and then some small and ordinary would come along and crumble me again. I broke down over making myself tuna salad one day, because she was always right there, waiting for me to pour the juice into her bowl.

I am so, so, so sorry. I've been gone all morning and didn't know what was going on until now.

 

[drmom777]

Goodbye Ella.

 

[Ellas_Daddy]

You are all right. And I appreciate it.

I'll have you know, that when I was hammering clamps down on the rope leads, more often than not, Miss Ella was right there on the concrete floor wiggling her butt and checking out what her "daddy" was doing. She even dropped her Orbee's to inspect my work. She would always come down the stairs to the basement with that butt bounce and look on her face: "Whatcha doin', daddy?" She didn't do that for at least the last 2 weeks, which I think unconsciously stressed me.

She would also, climb all over the tissue paper when Rebecca would pack orders. If you ever had a torn tissue paper in an order, I apologize for Ella's mark. lol. There may even be a paw print on an invoice or two out there.

Fedex rang our bell a bit ago and there was no barking. It is those little things that sting so much. I'm sure many of you know that feeling. Those little things that make you stop dead in your tracks and cry. I know it will continue for years, but the acute pain will go away and it will be nostalgia for the good ol' days.

 

[drmom777]

I know. When we lost our pittie, Deuce, everything got to me, but the thing that broke me was when I went in the freezer to get something and I saw his bag of bonesicles in there. I stood there, holding a bloody frozen bone and sobbing. it is stupid things like that that get you.

 

[Toller_08]

I am so, so very sorry... how heartwrenching. We lost Echo, our Rottweiler, 5 years ago to the same thing and the pain and grief over such a loss is awful. It's so hard to lose them, and especially so unexpectedly. Again, I am very sorry. ((((hugs))))

 

[Ellas_Daddy]

I know. When we lost our pittie, Deuce, everything got to me, but the thing that broke me was when I went in the freezer to get something and I saw his bag of bonesicles in there. I stood there, holding a bloody frozen bone and sobbing. it is stupid things like that that get you.

Hell, I'll probably cry seeing a pile of her poop in the yard. I tried to pack up most everything, but I'm sure there are objects laying around to spur a moment.

 

[Baxter'smybaby]

I know how hard this decision is to make--and that look on Ella's face letting you know it was all just too hard. You have all loved Ella and given her an amazing life--I often thought when reading some posts about her, I wondered how many families would have worked as hard with Ella? How many would be willing to really manage the DA and what that means to your family? I can tell you from my little section of the world here, I think Ella was one lucky girl--her life may have been far too short--but it is clear it was so full of love it could have been 100 years worth.
I pray for peace for you all--that time will ease your pain, and loving memories will fill that void. Ella was a special girl, who was lucky enough to have a special family take care of her--even when it was beyond what you thought you could do. ((HUGS)) to you all. Thank you for sharing Ella with us all--she touched so many lives.

 

[bubbatd]

Luckily in my many years I.ve never put things away . Thank God for Chip sending me Ollie ~~ less than a week before I even knew Chip was sick . Between Chip's ashes in my special wooden box and feeding Ollie from his special dog bowl , I think of you an Ella daily .

 

[Xandra]

I'm so sorry to hear this. You two were blessed to have had such a wonderful dog in your lives and Ella was blessed to have friends who loved her so wholly yet had the courage and sense to know when it was time.

RIP Ella.

 

[sparks19]

RIP Ella. All of our hearts are very heavy today with this loss. The pain you are feeling is unmeasurable.

It was very hard when we lost Teddy very suddenly. "luckily" it was a Friday so Brian had the weekend off as I'm not sure he would have made it through the next day at work.

it's not silly to cry and grieve. not at all. YOu loved her... she loved you. You need time to grieve in whatever way you need to.

One thing that helped us a little was when we got Teddy's ashes back we went out and bought a yearling tree. One that would flower around the time of his death (early spring). We planted that tree with half of his ashes (we even moved the tree with us when we moved out of that house). Even though he was gone and nothing would bring him back.. having LIFE grow around his ashes was kind of therapeutic. it was something alive that we could sit by and talk to him. That tree is thriving these days and every year it blooms within a week of when he died with beautiful white flowers and we see them, smell them, enjoy them while they are there and think of him. Just an idea.

I'm so very sorry you guys have to go through this

 

[Renee750il]

Hell, I'll probably cry seeing a pile of her poop in the yard. I tried to pack up most everything, but I'm sure there are objects laying around to spur a moment.

I still have, years later, a box of my Gonzo's (blue cat) favorite things, his studded collar, a rock he would drag out of the fountain to lick, the duster he commandeered for his favorite toy, his HABIT scarf he wore when he went on therapy visits . . . Every so often it's good to take things out and remember.

The only thing that could be make losing them any worse would be if we had to forget them.

 

[Sweet72947]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I didn't know what happened until now, because I've been at work all morning. (((((hugs)))))

You gave her a good life. You grieve now, but one day, you'll find that when you remember Ella, you'll remember the good times, and the tears will turn to laughter.

 

[Crowsfeet]

Oh my God. I'm so, so sorry. This is beyond sudden.


Ella was more than an icon for her breed, and one of my favorite Chazzers. It's beautiful to know that she passed in compassionate, loving arms, surrounded by those she loved most. I'm going to miss her pictures and stories , they really did something when I had the chance to see them.

I wish you three the best, as well as for all those who were blessed to know Ella... she was a very special girl. I am so, so sorry.

 

[smkie]

When my son took over my old car he laughed at me saying "OMG Mom you should see all the dog hair I took out of there." All i could think was there goes the last of Bronki. It amazes me how there is this giant void where so much personality and love was. All the pieces are still there but that soul has slipped away. WE are crying right along with you. She will be truly missed by so many.