This is more a vent then anything.....
But I feel guilty about Beau and Outlaw. I'm starting to think that Outlaw is my heart dog and I feel so horrible about because I've always said Beau was. Beau was with me for 10.5 years and he was with me through everything, dark times and good times. He stood by my side and took my darkest secrets to the grave with him and I miss him dearly, but Outlaw has wormed his way into m heart in ways I've never even imagined.
He literally goes EVERYWHERE with me and if we are seperated it's because I'm working and I have panic attacks being away from him. I become a nervous wreck when seperated from him and he's always by my side. He's become my SDiT for my anxiety and depression and has made me living my life easy again. I've done things with him I've always dreamed of doing with a dog and he is my first introduction to the world of sport dogs and trick training. I'm starting to feel like he's my heart dog and I feel horrible for it.
I feel like I'm betraying Beau in away and it's probably something stupid to think about, but is it normal to feel this way?
But I feel guilty about Beau and Outlaw. I'm starting to think that Outlaw is my heart dog and I feel so horrible about because I've always said Beau was. Beau was with me for 10.5 years and he was with me through everything, dark times and good times. He stood by my side and took my darkest secrets to the grave with him and I miss him dearly, but Outlaw has wormed his way into m heart in ways I've never even imagined.
He literally goes EVERYWHERE with me and if we are seperated it's because I'm working and I have panic attacks being away from him. I become a nervous wreck when seperated from him and he's always by my side. He's become my SDiT for my anxiety and depression and has made me living my life easy again. I've done things with him I've always dreamed of doing with a dog and he is my first introduction to the world of sport dogs and trick training. I'm starting to feel like he's my heart dog and I feel horrible for it.
I feel like I'm betraying Beau in away and it's probably something stupid to think about, but is it normal to feel this way?