there isnt an icon that shows ure heart being ripped outI cant believe it, she wasnt sick, she wasnt getting out of the yard, she was so happy. everything was going right, everything was getting better. then chris went out yesterday to pick mum up from work.
when he came home, i heard mum come in and tell grace something terrible had happened, somehow daisy had got into the back of the car and got stuck, she just lay down and died where grace always sat. I cant believe it.
She would just get n soetimes when you wenrt looking and be so quiet so she could go somewhere. and you wouldnt even notice here.
i cant believe it. its the worst thing i can imagine, i cant even think how grace must feel, daisy was the dog she got 8 years ago for christmas when she was a 4 year old. Grace was 4 and pulling thte screen off her bedroom window and running away, she was too scared to have a shower coz sharks migght come thru the drain and kill her and daisy was always there, she would be right beside her all the time and always made a fuss whenever we came home.
its so quiet here now, i never noticed but she was always just pottering around with her registration tag hitting her collar and making this cute clanking noise when she walked, she was mums absolute favourite a real special, she was just a little darling, and so classy all the time.
chris feels awful because he was the only one home and he doesnt know how the hell she got there, or when. and he feels like he has just killed the dog we got to mend a broken family when my father killed martha.
i cant believe it, i feel so guilty, going out and having fun with my friends when daisy was lying down to die in our car.
it wasnt even something complicated, like a car accident or an operation, all that anyone had to do was open the door, and now she is gone. I keep crying by myself because i dont like grieving in front of other people and it hasnt sunk in.
i just keep seeing her body lying there in a towel, her legs all stiff and her mouth looking soo thin. it was so unatural. she was all bloated and i hated seeing her like that!
poor sophie went for her walk today, came home, put her head on graces lap and then went and lay where we put daisy yesterday for her and buster to see her.
so on the 22nd Febuary 2006 we lost one of the most important parts of our family, and i dont know why.
she was just there, the last thing i did was call her into the front seat when i got out of the car at school incase chris forgot she was there. the last thing grace did was puch her away and slam the door because she was so happy and livley. its so awful, I have never lost anything like this, the last animals we lost were when i was like 5. i cant believe it
