Having a little bit of an issue and I wanted to post for some advice/feedback/encouragement or a nice kick in the you-know-where.
About 6ish mos ago, my Mom asked me what was my goal weight. I told her I didn't have a specific goal weight in pounds, but I would be happy if I got into a singe digit pants size
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when I started last year, I was barely fitting into my 16s, I had to get two 18s to wear for work and I was seriously PO'd at myself for that!!
(In retrospect, she was asking because was starting to worry about me
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Since then, I've lost more weight...
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today I finally broke down and went shopping for new clothes again (I've been , I got a couple of outfits. The jeans I got... fits me very nicely, not tight, comfortable.... 8s :banana: I was not braggy but I was happy, my friend who I was shopping with was very happy for me and got me to try on several things I would've NEVER tried on before we were laughing and having a good time.
One outfit she picked out for me was something I knew I'd probably never wear, one with a really short skirt and tights. I put them on with a brave face and we all had a good laugh. She really really liked it, went on and on about it, and then was shocked and devastated when I put them back. She asked my why, and I told her I was too fat to wear something like that, I want my legs to be skinnier before I wear something like that. I don't want to be one of "those girls" who wear clothes that they "shouldn't"
That's when I got the "eating disorder" talk
Then, later, my mom called me with almost the same "eating disorder" talk
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(yes my "friend" outed me). But I've heard similar from my mom before - she got my dad to ask me if I was taking pills to lose weight several months ago (which I am NOT)
Now, of course I don't think I am being unrealistic at all. My best friend thinks this is all ridiculous, but she is also my weight loss buddy through all this
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she told me that I could wear these clothes if I wanted to, or had better self image/self esteem, but supports me. I have a new exercise plan to implement this week, targeting the leg /thigh areas. And starting today, I am cutting out pop 100% as opposed to a treat a couple times a week. But unless I am with her, I am feeling very beat down and discouraged about the whole thing
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to top it off, I had a touch of the stomach flu or something and couldn't keep anything solid down for two days, so they think I'm not eating and starving myself . LOL
Sorry... More of a vent than anything, it seems