The Venting Thread

Yeaterday a friend of mine talked me into revisiting the idea of opening my own boarding/daycare place.

I want to do it SO BADLY. I don't know how to write a good proposal to get investors involved. I don't know if investors are a good idea because then they seem to want to have a say in how their money is spent and I have some very specific ideas on how this place will be setup/run.

I don't know if I can give up health insurance and be self-employed again.

Just so... off lately?

I've been listening to a lot of hard rock and Pink, which is what I defaulted to whenever I was having issues with my dad. Been having kind of a hard time with my self-esteem and confidence lately. I'm really trying hard to eat better and work out and every time I try I just feel really tired and just sit on the computer. Haven't been keeping up with homework as well and this is no time to be slacking. Leaning hard on Josh for a pick me up and he's just not with the game right now. I know it's not right and I know why he's "pulling away"... but zombie Josh sucks and I miss normal Josh.

I was on such a roll tonight, was feeling better and then I just got back in this slump. Not sure where this post is headed.. I'm just feeling unwanted and just generally bummed out and tired and unmotivated.

So, thanks for listening/reading I guess? I'm kind of at a point where I feel super strong about where my education is going and a potential career, but am really lacking in my marriage and relationships and don't really feel like I have anybody I can spill my guts to. Not sure why I feel a public forum is that place.

Also on the mice front, after months of not seeing mice and dealing with them, I found 2 mouse poos this morning. FML.

Just so... off lately?

I've been listening to a lot of hard rock and Pink, which is what I defaulted to whenever I was having issues with my dad. Been having kind of a hard time with my self-esteem and confidence lately. I'm really trying hard to eat better and work out and every time I try I just feel really tired and just sit on the computer. Haven't been keeping up with homework as well and this is no time to be slacking. Leaning hard on Josh for a pick me up and he's just not with the game right now. I know it's not right and I know why he's "pulling away"... but zombie Josh sucks and I miss normal Josh.

I was on such a roll tonight, was feeling better and then I just got back in this slump. Not sure where this post is headed.. I'm just feeling unwanted and just generally bummed out and tired and unmotivated.

So, thanks for listening/reading I guess? I'm kind of at a point where I feel super strong about where my education is going and a potential career, but am really lacking in my marriage and relationships and don't really feel like I have anybody I can spill my guts to. Not sure why I feel a public forum is that place.

Eating disorder. . .that's all.
And I started to bitch about it in the fitness thread where it doesn't belong. Just. . .bleh.

I disagree, I think it does belong there. You're definitely not the only person utilizing that thread who has struggled with it.
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Just so... off lately?

I've been listening to a lot of hard rock and Pink, which is what I defaulted to whenever I was having issues with my dad. Been having kind of a hard time with my self-esteem and confidence lately. I'm really trying hard to eat better and work out and every time I try I just feel really tired and just sit on the computer. Haven't been keeping up with homework as well and this is no time to be slacking. Leaning hard on Josh for a pick me up and he's just not with the game right now. I know it's not right and I know why he's "pulling away"... but zombie Josh sucks and I miss normal Josh.

I was on such a roll tonight, was feeling better and then I just got back in this slump. Not sure where this post is headed.. I'm just feeling unwanted and just generally bummed out and tired and unmotivated.

So, thanks for listening/reading I guess? I'm kind of at a point where I feel super strong about where my education is going and a potential career, but am really lacking in my marriage and relationships and don't really feel like I have anybody I can spill my guts to. Not sure why I feel a public forum is that place.

Ugh, BALLS... wintry mix is occurring outside. I was all set to go to the gym for Combat tonight... now I don't wanna because I don't want to risk having to drive home with ice on the roads.

Boooooooo winter. Boooooo you and your weather.

I'm sorry they're hurting, but think of it this way. That usually means they're a bit bigger and HEY PLUS for Saturday!

I'm terrified of hob-nobbing with fancy people. Especially when the dress I"m wearing is something I got for $16 about 4 years ago from Ross. I feel like it will be immediately apparent and I'm going to wish I had gone and spent the $170 on a new dress. Maybe if I paint the bottoms of my heels red and pretend they're Louboutins...

Yeaterday a friend of mine talked me into revisiting the idea of opening my own boarding/daycare place.

I want to do it SO BADLY. I don't know how to write a good proposal to get investors involved. I don't know if investors are a good idea because then they seem to want to have a say in how their money is spent and I have some very specific ideas on how this place will be setup/run.

I don't know if I can give up health insurance and be self-employed again.