I just feel like I'm treading water at school..my classes are just so much harder then I thought they would be and I'm so stressed.
Being a science major? I understood it.. I studied, I knew the right answers.
Being a pre-law.. it's so grey. Papers I think are perfect aren't, it's about personal analysis, the right answer isn't always clear, rules aren't rules, its all just..difficult.
Not to mention I have to take calc 2, which I am AWFUL at. The professor teaches like he is running a **** marathon and never even looks back long enough to ask a question.
Don't even get me started on learning ancient greek. DO NOT TAKE THIS LANGUAGE. It's so **** hard! The letters, the cases, each word changes based on it's role in the sentence.. the sentence structure is just ugh
I love my job. I really do.
But I have classes 9 am-11:30..Then dog walking/work 12-4:00, then back to school 5:30-9:00.
By the end of it.. I am so ready to crash. I have to stay at school after 9 pm because if I go home I'll just fall into bed. Dog walking is so draining, it's a lot of physical work and I love the dogs but I'm so tired.
I feel like I am just running on empty and burning myself out and I'm stressed and tired.
and I got a C+ on an english paper today. I have NEVER gotten a C+ on a paper before.
I'm a failure and I am failing.
and I just want to cry and make everything stop.
Worst of all my parents are all supportive and "Aww Honey, it's ok, we are so proud of you, you just started, it will get better"
which makes me even more upset at myself for disappointing them
My mom is the best mother in the universe and she deserves the best daughter and she got me and I feel like it just isn't fair.