The Venting Thread
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I can only try to imagine what you're going through, and I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how unfair it must seem to have her happy and healthy when your heart dog "drew a short stick". I know you don't actually wish harm on her or anything like that... I can understand what it must feel like, though. If that makes me a shitty person, so be it... my heart is broken for you & Zander. All the best for Quinny, too - I'm glad she has a soft place to land.
I can only try to imagine what you're going through, and I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how unfair it must seem to have her happy and healthy when your heart dog "drew a short stick". I know you don't actually wish harm on her or anything like that... I can understand what it must feel like, though. If that makes me a shitty person, so be it... my heart is broken for you & Zander. All the best for Quinny, too - I'm glad she has a soft place to land.
Agreed... I mean I understand how you might actually even resent Quinn a little bit right now. You would not be the only person on this forum to have lost a dog and to have felt anger and hurt toward remaining dogs, especially in a kind of "I don't ever want to feel this pain again so I am going to distance myself from my other dog(s.)" Which is why I think taking a break is a really good idea. If you want to try again after your heart has healed a bit, then you try again. And if you don't, well, sometimes it's not the right fit and that's all there is to it.
I'm bringing my cat to work with me tomorrow for his annual exam/bloodwork and I don't waaaaant to. He's such a jackass sometimes. Okay he's really not that bad in comparison to lots of other cats but he's just so uncooperative for blood draws and it takes forever and GAH. Here's to hoping that drowning him in Feliway will help lol.
Plus I just worry that his screening bloodwork is actually going to uncover a problem. His BUN/creatinine have gone up the last couple years. Last year they were at the high end of normal so I'm concerned about what will turn up this year. I mean that's the point of annual bloodwork right, to establish trends and catch things early... but I don't want to catch things early, I want there to be nothing to catch! I never really think of him as an old cat, but he is 14 so I guess he's getting up there. =/
Plus I just worry that his screening bloodwork is actually going to uncover a problem. His BUN/creatinine have gone up the last couple years. Last year they were at the high end of normal so I'm concerned about what will turn up this year. I mean that's the point of annual bloodwork right, to establish trends and catch things early... but I don't want to catch things early, I want there to be nothing to catch! I never really think of him as an old cat, but he is 14 so I guess he's getting up there. =/
I just make him sound much worse than he really is lol. He's not a leather gloves kind of guy. I just remember last year we had to combine blood from like 4 or 5 different syringes in order to get enough of a sample because he either does not bleed well or just does not sit still enough to get enough in one go. He's terrible for a jugular draw, unless it's an upside down jugular, in which case he stays perfectly still but none of us ever draw blood this way so we failed at it when we tried with him. 
It's probably just a big ordeal because he's MY cat lol we never have these issues with anyone else.
It's probably just a big ordeal because he's MY cat lol we never have these issues with anyone else.
My car was wrecked. I'd written it off as a loss at first look, but thank god I learned more than one trade and am a mechanic. Swapped a sway bar and tow bar out, and the did it perfectly, in my yard. Now my car no longer wants to drag me into a ditch when it's driven.
Still has a lot of body damage from hitting the deer. The person driving (Soon to be ex spouse) showed no remorse, no offer to rent me a vehicle, refused to get a loan to replace my vehicle, and was an all around jacka$s about it. And because he insisted all we needed was liability, the insurance won't do anything. I took myself off of his insurance and got my own, full coverage for my new car, even if it just raised my car insurance payments by 70 a month, I'm getting the "snapshot" thing and going to try to lower my rates that way. And I also found out he was in an at fault accident that I never heard about, and has points on his license, and he blamed ME for our rates going up becauses I backed into a car in a parking lot!
Luckily, my younger brother desperately needs a car, and I'm going to fix the hood and headlight assembly for him, he's going to sell his POS and buy this one from me. The NADA value on it before it was wrecked, with the condition it was in, and the milage on it was 4500 dollars. I'm only getting 1500 for it, but it's my brother, and he's owned crap cars all his life, and I feel better knowing he's getting a car that's actually RELIABLE (as long as he doesn't dog it out like it's a race car) and he has to fix the emissions issue on it. I was going to do that before my birthday (because it's seriously a 40 dollar part, but I'm lazy sometimes ) So hopefully that gets me some sort of GOOD karma.
Ended up getting my OWN loan (my credit score is almost in the 700's so that good news!!!!!) and bought myself another car. Now I'm trying to figure out what parts I want off the damaged car for this car I bought, because I do like it better (though I wish it had power windows/doors/mirrors and the upgraded gauge cluster, but I can do all that myself eventually) and the new car has cloth seats. My two hellions and cloth seats do NOT mix. And it's a two door, and not exactly a hatchback like I was wanting, but whatever.
The issue vent I guess is AFTER I went through all this Ex-SO is soooo repentant and wants to help with car payments and doesn't want me to move out, ect. I think I'm being gaslighted. I think he only wants me to stay so that he can continue to go to school. I'm giving him a month.
My teeth keep breaking, because I end up spitting out my mouthguard at night sometimes, and the last time I did it, Harrison chewed it up Now I've had a root canal in the front and my gums are sOOO sore, and it's bothering me immensely. I still need at minimum three teeth pulled, and several cavities filled, despite the fact that I brush my teeth at least twice a day. But both my parents have bad tooth enamel so I guess I got the short end of that straw. Thank god my dad has agree to help me pay for half of it, and I found a low cost clinic, that even if it does take me a while to get everything done there, I can get it done.
My boss at work is illegally, well, basically it boils down to wage theft. Do I want to confront him now, because I potentially have a job lined up, and enough put back that I can live off of until I get this job, but this job isn't a guarantee, or do I want to wait until I'm POSITIVE I have this job, and THEN confront him. I think I'm going to do the second because I can not afford to be without a job and I don't have nearly enough to live off of for longer than two weeks.
And Harrison has ripped his chest open somehow. Not a clue how, but I can't keep any sort of wrap on him (have you tried to bandage a ten month old Malinois that hurts and doesn't want to be bandaged? It sucks.) I've been keeping t-shirts on him, but the vet couldn't sew it together (I love that my vet will take my word for things, accepts texted pictures, and will call in antibiotics without seeing my dogs lol, but I've been with them for nearly ten years now, so they know I know what I'm on about)
But it sucked because he's on limited activity (have you tried to limit a ten month old Malinois activity? It sucks) and in a cone, but the cone has to be upside down, because otherwise he won't walk ANYWHERE.
UGH. This turned into a novel
Can Mercury please get out of retrograde, and PLEASE GOD let it be someone else turn in the barrel, someone who actually DESERVES this crap?!
Still has a lot of body damage from hitting the deer. The person driving (Soon to be ex spouse) showed no remorse, no offer to rent me a vehicle, refused to get a loan to replace my vehicle, and was an all around jacka$s about it. And because he insisted all we needed was liability, the insurance won't do anything. I took myself off of his insurance and got my own, full coverage for my new car, even if it just raised my car insurance payments by 70 a month, I'm getting the "snapshot" thing and going to try to lower my rates that way. And I also found out he was in an at fault accident that I never heard about, and has points on his license, and he blamed ME for our rates going up becauses I backed into a car in a parking lot!
Luckily, my younger brother desperately needs a car, and I'm going to fix the hood and headlight assembly for him, he's going to sell his POS and buy this one from me. The NADA value on it before it was wrecked, with the condition it was in, and the milage on it was 4500 dollars. I'm only getting 1500 for it, but it's my brother, and he's owned crap cars all his life, and I feel better knowing he's getting a car that's actually RELIABLE (as long as he doesn't dog it out like it's a race car) and he has to fix the emissions issue on it. I was going to do that before my birthday (because it's seriously a 40 dollar part, but I'm lazy sometimes
) So hopefully that gets me some sort of GOOD karma. Ended up getting my OWN loan (my credit score is almost in the 700's so that good news!!!!!) and bought myself another car. Now I'm trying to figure out what parts I want off the damaged car for this car I bought, because I do like it better (though I wish it had power windows/doors/mirrors and the upgraded gauge cluster, but I can do all that myself eventually) and the new car has cloth seats. My two hellions and cloth seats do NOT mix. And it's a two door, and not exactly a hatchback like I was wanting, but whatever.
The issue vent I guess is AFTER I went through all this Ex-SO is soooo repentant and wants to help with car payments and doesn't want me to move out, ect. I think I'm being gaslighted. I think he only wants me to stay so that he can continue to go to school. I'm giving him a month.
My teeth keep breaking, because I end up spitting out my mouthguard at night sometimes, and the last time I did it, Harrison chewed it up
Now I've had a root canal in the front and my gums are sOOO sore, and it's bothering me immensely. I still need at minimum three teeth pulled, and several cavities filled, despite the fact that I brush my teeth at least twice a day. But both my parents have bad tooth enamel so I guess I got the short end of that straw. Thank god my dad has agree to help me pay for half of it, and I found a low cost clinic, that even if it does take me a while to get everything done there, I can get it done. My boss at work is illegally, well, basically it boils down to wage theft. Do I want to confront him now, because I potentially have a job lined up, and enough put back that I can live off of until I get this job, but this job isn't a guarantee, or do I want to wait until I'm POSITIVE I have this job, and THEN confront him. I think I'm going to do the second because I can not afford to be without a job and I don't have nearly enough to live off of for longer than two weeks.
And Harrison has ripped his chest open somehow. Not a clue how, but I can't keep any sort of wrap on him (have you tried to bandage a ten month old Malinois that hurts and doesn't want to be bandaged? It sucks.) I've been keeping t-shirts on him, but the vet couldn't sew it together (I love that my vet will take my word for things, accepts texted pictures, and will call in antibiotics without seeing my dogs lol, but I've been with them for nearly ten years now, so they know I know what I'm on about)
But it sucked because he's on limited activity (have you tried to limit a ten month old Malinois activity? It sucks) and in a cone, but the cone has to be upside down, because otherwise he won't walk ANYWHERE.
UGH. This turned into a novel
Can Mercury please get out of retrograde, and PLEASE GOD let it be someone else turn in the barrel, someone who actually DESERVES this crap?!