so i was casually browsing homes for sale last night.... Which is something i've done when i'm bored for like, my entire life... And i stumbled across this really cute house, with a nice fenced backyard and it looks really nice inside and it's not far from where i live now and not too far from work and it's right down the street from a lake and i drove by it today and the neighborhood is super cute and there is a target close by (utmost importance) and i want it. The price point looks really doable too buuuuut i don't have enough money to make the sort of down payment i probably should. So that's dumb.
and it is literally the only house i can find in the areas i'd be willing to live, that is at an affordable price without being dumpy looking. Which makes me feel like even when i do get more money saved up, i won't be able to find a house like this. My mom as usual is being totally pessimistic about it, and my sister is like yeah do it let me put you in contact with people! So that's very conflicting. I've been saving my money for a down payment for a house and i'm getting reallyyyy close to where i need to be, but seeing this house makes me want to move now.
