Thank you so, so much for your support and kind words. It took me a while before I was even coherent enough to post about Lucy.
I'm still in so much shock, and it's hard for me to accept that any minute now she won't come bounding around the corner and jump in my lap.
What makes it worse is that it was all my fault and I can't bear it.
I don't know exactly what happened, but I do know that it is NOT your fault.
Dogs DO have minds of their own and you can't protect or predict everything that happens with them.
I blamed myself for Emma's head injury last year, but I've finally accepted that LIFE happens and you can't always stop or prevent accidents from happening. Even in "safe" situations, horrible outcomes can occur.
You are an awesome pet owner and your girls were so lucky to have you! I know that Lucy and Millie mean the world to you- it's obvious how loving and devoted to them you are just by looking at all of your pictures. Lucy had an amazing life.
I'm so, so sorry. Jessie said it best - life happens, and with it comes accidents and unpredictable outcomes. We all saw through your photos and stories how wonderfully cared for and loved she was. You did good by her.
Still thinking of you honey. Nothing was your fault, we can't protect them from everything. We know you did everything for your dogs, if you knew something was going to happen, you would have did your [email protected] best to prevent it.
I'm so sorry for your loss, Lucy was absolutely beautiful. It's heartbreaking losing a dog so young.
I lost Maddy two weeks ago, in a terrible accident, but I too felt it was my fault at the time. I see now it was not, but there is still a guilty feeling hanging over me. I don't know what happened to Lucy, but if you want to talk, I sort of know what you are going through, and feel free to PM me.
I was so glad to see you posting again in the fire hydrant, and so heartbroken when I realized what brought you here. Lucy personality shone through your posts and what you wrote about her here made me very emotional. ((hugs)), & prayers.
I can't even tell you how much you guys all mean to me right now.
It's hard posting here because I keep catching myself talking about "my dogs," meaning Millie and Lucy. But I also feel like I need to be here, for several reasons, including the fact that my family (except my mom) are the people who keep saying she was just a dog, and "Too bad. Get another one. Sorry."
Basically I just appreciate all of you and I can't thank you enough for your support.
I just miss my little Lucy Goosey so much. There are no words.
Erin, that was absolutely beautiful. I've never seen that before. Thank you for posting it.
My heart has been torn out by the too-soon loss of "just a dog" and the comfort of "just a dog" is the only thing helping me keep my sanity right now. Millie can't cure my pain, it's not like another dog can replace another, but I really, really don't know what I would do without her. I don't even want to think about it.
And yes, I've wanted to strangle some people. Mostly when I've heard things like that, though, I just feel so much more devastation and helplessness I can't muster the anger to defend my feelings and the wonderful little dog who made my life brighter every single day.
People just don't understand. I honestly don't understand how you can have a dog in your life and NOT feel the way that people on chaz do about their animals. When Harry died I had a friend (good friend) act shocked that I cried when he died. I can't remember the exact words but it was along the lines of 'Yeah it's sad, but he was just a dog'...I don't know what my point really is but I just don't get it.
Lucy was very lucky to have YOU, someone who loved her and appreciated her for what she is. I think that's the best thing a dog could ever have.