I am SO sorry for you loss. Only those of us who have dogs, can understand the magnitude of what they ad to our lives. Last year, I had to put down my 15 year old shi/mal and it was the hardest thing I have ever done. Believe it or not, harder then watching my parents die because it was MY decision when and how she would take her last breath and because dogs are unbelievable creatures and give us so much. Please when you are up to it, tell us the story of your dog and what happened. Sometimes talking about these things help. We are praying for you!!