The Venting Thread

This house buying business is for the birds. Such an annoying process lol. I think it'll be worth it but ugh ready to just be done.

We should be closing next week on our short sale property! It has taken about 4 months, but it's happening. There's a lot of 'hurry up and wait'

My mom basically just called me worthless.

Well, that's a great confidence booster. Thanks, mom. As if I needed a reminder.

I was trying to have a good day. To ignore how much pain I'm in and not get sucked back into feeling like this anymore (http://www.plyrics.com/lyrics/amityaffliction/pittsburgh.html).

Leave it to her to ruin all my hard work. I woke up excited, because I'm having someone make a custom dragon figurine for me... and now I feel like I don't know how to deal with anything anymore. All my energy is just drained.

Times like this make me think that once I move out, I will never see my family again. And I hope they don't do this to me when I do move out, because I honestly think I'd be okay with cutting them out because everyone always says crap like that to me.

And I'm honestly shocked I'm even thinking this of myself, because I used to just go along with it and say, "yes, yes I am worthless, no I don't have a life". But I do have a life, and while it's not what they want, it's mine and it's worth something... to me, even if it's not worth anything to anybody else.

my mother called me worthless my entire life, not in so many words, but by her actions. her constant reminders that i wasnt capable of achieving anything, and that i was safer to just remain at home and live on disability until the day i died. that things i want to do werent realistic, that my someday dreams werent things i could handle.

its been 12 years since we last saw each other and i dont regret estranging myself from her for even one second. sometimes venomous people are better not in your life at all, so you can begin to heal *hugs

Hey congrats! Could be worse with a short sale. I'm closing in 4 weeks and was doing okay until today, lol having to get in touch with the insurance company to figure out homeowners insurance and I have all these documents I need to print/sign/scan/email back, and my printer wasn't working.... it's just been a lot to do today, everything is time sensitive but I hardly have the time to do it!

I've fallen in love with my foster dog. She isn't really even what I want, but she's a perfect pet dog.

What's worse is the BF is completely in love with her, thinks she's awesome and perfect. He really wants to keep her.

What's even worse is that if we kept her I can't get my purebred, go-anywhere, do anything dog and I KNOW she will continue to have hip issues for most of her life. I don't think I want a dog who does hikes in a backpack with me carrying her, if I'm going to be honest with myself.

What's the worst is that someone at the shelter already has dibs on her. That is actually the worst part.

That's how I know I've fallen pretty hard.

I've fallen in love with my foster dog. She isn't really even what I want, but she's a perfect pet dog.

What's worse is the BF is completely in love with her, thinks she's awesome and perfect. He really wants to keep her.

What's even worse is that if we kept her I can't get my purebred, go-anywhere, do anything dog and I KNOW she will continue to have hip issues for most of her life. I don't think I want a dog who does hikes in a backpack with me carrying her, if I'm going to be honest with myself.

What's the worst is that someone at the shelter already has dibs on her. That is actually the worst part.

That's how I know I've fallen pretty hard.

I know HD sucks and you would rather she doesn't have it but, there is so much available for management to reduce the symptoms. Unless she is so painful/bad she needs surgery. Lots of options.

That is the worst.


I fell in love with my first foster. She was everything I didn't want, but she was perfect. I took in a new foster, and so she moved to another foster. After a week, I realized I had made a huge mistake and wanted to keep my first foster forever. I was too late...it was heartbreaking.

I still regret not adopting MeToo, but I did end up with the most perfect dog in Smiley. I just wish MeToo was here too.

She has a fractured pelvis. She is showing improvement, but can't walk more than half a mile without an obvious limp. The vet said she should be about as healed as she'll ever get now, and she's been okayed for light exercise. But a dog this low energy and unable to keep up (I literally have to bring a backpack to carry her in everywhere- she wants to keep going but really can't) isn't remotely what I want. I want a jogging companion, really. And she basically will never get more active or less sheddy than this. But we both really love her. We talked about it and there are no dealbreakers on his end and nothing that's a dealbreaker right now for me. I just worry that she's not really what I want in some important ways, and can I deal with that for a decade plus? I can only have one dog. So it's heart battling with logic. She will probably have chronic pain and never be a runner, and aging will be really uncomfortable and probably set in early. The weather does seem to affect her.

I'm going to continue talking to a breeder and if she says no way you can't have a puppy from me, and Star's owner decides she can't keep her, I think we probably will despite the reasons not to. There are just too many reasons to do it. I think they outweigh the reasons not to. I'm just not sure.



Yeah. The last time I fell this hard for a foster, I still wish I kept her. I still think about her weekly. I think she's probably dead now. Too many behavioral problems. I found out YEARS later that her adopter gave her back instead of contacting me. I'm still deeply affected by it. If she gets adopted by someone else, I will be completely heartbroken. Who knows. maybe she's just a rebound puppy and I'm letting my emotions get the best of me. Maybe the universe wants me to keep her.

She came with the name I was planning on naming next dog, basically. Who knows.

The decision isn't even mine to make.

She has a fractured pelvis. She is showing improvement, but can't walk more than half a mile without an obvious limp. The vet said she should be about as healed as she'll ever get now, and she's been okayed for light exercise. But a dog this low energy and unable to keep up (I literally have to bring a backpack to carry her in everywhere- she wants to keep going but really can't) isn't remotely what I want. I want a jogging companion, really. And she basically will never get more active or less sheddy than this. But we both really love her. We talked about it and there are no dealbreakers on his end and nothing that's a dealbreaker right now for me. I just worry that she's not really what I want in some important ways, and can I deal with that for a decade plus? I can only have one dog. So it's heart battling with logic. She will probably have chronic pain and never be a runner, and aging will be really uncomfortable and probably set in early. The weather does seem to affect her.

It isn't easy, but I think you will kick yourself living with a dog that can't do the things you want.