Please do not be harsh about this. I am coming to yall as yall are considered my friends and I am very lost right now. I wish I could just get a hug and it all be over with, but nothing is that simple, it seems.
As yall know I am with TJ, been with him since June 14th, been living together since Nov. 4th.
I love him. He is everything to me.
But I am so unhappy. It has NOTHING to do with TJ, but has everything to do with that I can't find a job, I can't go back to school right now unless I go through Penn Foster or Ashworth (which I am not to comfortable doing, but I want to go back to school so bad!), my relationship with my mom, I miss my dad & grandma & friends (who live about 4 hours north of me around Atlanta).
I have family and friends where I live but I can never depend on them and I can never talk to them, so I feel like I don't have a connection with them and they aren't really "here".
I have considered moving back to my dad's. Where I have friends and family, my hobbies like horses, dogs, camping, hunting, and I know I'll be happy.
But my unhappiness is affecting the way I feel about everything.
TJ treats me so good and takes care of me, but for some reason, its not making me happy anymore.
I don't know what to do. Each situation has is pros and cons. Whether its staying down here with TJ or moving back to my dad's. I know TJ will move up there in the same area as my dad so him and I can stay together plus have all the benefits of being back up near my dad but that would make him unhappy cause all his family is down here and his family is VERY VERY close. And I don't want to be selfish and say "well if you want to stay with me, you have to move up where my daddy is" I can't do that. I won't do that. I cannot take TJ from his family. I don't feel he is keeping me from my family either.
I am just at a cross roads.
I want to just go with the flow and ride this out and see what happens but I don't think I can. I am very decision oriented. I am a planner and a list maker. I am constantly running through plans about this in my head and constantly making list about this in my head.
Plus being off my BC and my hormones going crazy and being stressed out is NOT helping this situation, at all.
I am confused. I guess I just needed to vent and whine a bit. I feel a bit better now.
opcorn: If you read all of this <3
As yall know I am with TJ, been with him since June 14th, been living together since Nov. 4th.
I love him. He is everything to me.
But I am so unhappy. It has NOTHING to do with TJ, but has everything to do with that I can't find a job, I can't go back to school right now unless I go through Penn Foster or Ashworth (which I am not to comfortable doing, but I want to go back to school so bad!), my relationship with my mom, I miss my dad & grandma & friends (who live about 4 hours north of me around Atlanta).
I have family and friends where I live but I can never depend on them and I can never talk to them, so I feel like I don't have a connection with them and they aren't really "here".
I have considered moving back to my dad's. Where I have friends and family, my hobbies like horses, dogs, camping, hunting, and I know I'll be happy.
But my unhappiness is affecting the way I feel about everything.
TJ treats me so good and takes care of me, but for some reason, its not making me happy anymore.
I don't know what to do. Each situation has is pros and cons. Whether its staying down here with TJ or moving back to my dad's. I know TJ will move up there in the same area as my dad so him and I can stay together plus have all the benefits of being back up near my dad but that would make him unhappy cause all his family is down here and his family is VERY VERY close. And I don't want to be selfish and say "well if you want to stay with me, you have to move up where my daddy is" I can't do that. I won't do that. I cannot take TJ from his family. I don't feel he is keeping me from my family either.
I am just at a cross roads.
I want to just go with the flow and ride this out and see what happens but I don't think I can. I am very decision oriented. I am a planner and a list maker. I am constantly running through plans about this in my head and constantly making list about this in my head.
Plus being off my BC and my hormones going crazy and being stressed out is NOT helping this situation, at all.
I am confused. I guess I just needed to vent and whine a bit. I feel a bit better now.
opcorn: If you read all of this <3