I am just so confused. My best friend, who I am totally in love with and have been in a relationship of sorts with for the past two years, started asking me a bunch of weird questions last night, like if I would ever be in a polygamous relationship and if I would be upset if he slept with our other friend. He was going on and on about how sex doesn't equal love to him, and I believe him, but it just left me feeling hurt and confused. I never get jealous, we aren't in a "real" relationship (we love each other very much and feel very strongly about each other and will be living together, but we've never "officially" started dating) so I shouldn't feel this way, but I do.
I haven't said anything to him about it yet. I know if I told him it bothered me, he would respect that, but I'm scared to tell him. It makes me feel petty and silly and dumb. I know him well enough to know that he's not going to fall in love with this girl and replace me or anything, but just the thought of him getting that...intimate and close with someone else, even if there aren't any romantic feelings there, hurts. I know it's a normal feeling, but I can't help but feel embarrassed by it. I never used to be this jealous and stupid.
I guess I want a "traditional" relationship more than I thought I did. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.