Anouther Memory of Tosser

[Love4Pits]

In my deepest depression when im feeling my downest i remember my boy. I remember my black boy Tosser.

I remember one of my worst nights i ran out of the house for the first time since Tosser was given to me with out him. He somehow got out though because I appeared at my side with in seconds of me running out our back door. It was summer and i was barefoot in jeans in a shirt. I took off for the dog trails. I eventually broke down and started crying and just collapsed stupid asthma had me again. I had just had a seriouse fight with my dad. He is a good man now but then he treated his dogs better then his family and was often drunk and abusive at times.

I was crying and hugging my knees shaking (mental ward style) i could'nt breath well and it was cold. Tosser snuggled his head through my arms and worked his way into my lap and just became limp and i just cried into him. And he just sat there patiently breathing in and out not trying to get away but was just content to sit in my lap for as long as i needed him in my lap. I sat in the woods until sun up no sleep came to me but I just sat there with my dog.

He was never one to lavish you in kisses but he would look at me and just in his eyes I could see so much love and understanding i would tear up and tell him I loved him.

I wish he was here now for me to hug and cry on until I could'nt anymore.....

[blue]

I know youre down but remember Tosser and Maxis for the times they made you grin and smile, Im sure it would make them feel better.

[gapeach]

Blue is right you have to remember the good times, that's the only way to get through losing someone. And Tosser and Maxis would both be sad to see you so upset. I'm glad you and Jamie are there together to comfort eachother. It must be a lil better to have someone else that loved him too.

[blue]

And how can you not smile looking at that pic of Babe? When you remeber more Tosser or Maxis stories, we would all love to read them.