The Venting Thread

[DJEtzel]

Originally Posted by frostfell

finally, FINALLY get my **** together and get a job, and now im being told im going to be homeless in less than a week, and i cant find anywhere to live. really? REALLY? THIS WHAT YOU GIVE ME, UNIVERSE? obviously i cant work AND be homeless, what the **** am i gonna do? :s

I know you're on the co-op group page, too, but if you need anything let me know!

[Giny]

Originally Posted by Dizzy

Urgh, I've been playing tribez. It's going to bankrupt me as I'm sooooooo impatient!! Up to level 19, need lumber and stone and money! Never played a game like this before, so addictive!

Well, I just downloaded this on the iPad, thanks to you.

[chaospony]

Ugh. I have a headache. Again. Two weeks of nearly constant headaches while I was sick was enough for awhile thank you

[~Dixie's_Mom~]

So, I posted this in the "ever think about moving" thread, but I think it belongs here as well. I would like some advice if anyone has any.

As some of you know, I had a falling out with an EXTREMELY close friend of mine (like, sister close) and we go to the same church. And it's the church where my dad preaches so I really can't go anywhere. I have to see her several times a week and it makes it really hard to move on from our friendship especially since she's basically "moved on" from my sister and I to a pair of our mutual friends. So it makes everything really awkward and honestly the whole time I'm there I just feel like I'm going to cry. I can't stand it and I wish I could just move away and never see her again. Honestly if I never saw her again I would be fine. But having to see her every few days is exhausting me emotionally. I can't stand it but there's honestly nothing I can do. I wish she would leave our church but I don't see that happening either.

I really don't know what to do. I don't think I can take much more of this. I feel like I need flipping therapy, no joke. I feel sick all the time (like nauseous) just from being so sad about it. The times I'm able to push it from my mind I'm fine, and there are times when I say "I really don't care, I don't need her, I have so much to be thankful for, I need to let go and I'll be fine." But I literally can't. I don't know what to even do or how to do it. Does it just take time? It's been a month already. I don't know why I hold onto things and people so hard, I just do. And I hate it but I can't change it. And like I said, sometimes I'm just fine, but other times I'm so depressed and anxious and I feel like complete crap.

[JessLough]

My boss will be dead by the emd of the week. I'm numb.

[sparks19]

Ugh Hannah is sick again. This time she is all wheezy and coughing and nose and eyes are running like crazy. Blech

[frostfell]

Originally Posted by DJEtzel

I know you're on the co-op group page, too, but if you need anything let me know!

Im not, anymore. Carol (carnivore) is a vicious backbiting bipolar BITCH and I refuse to have anything to do with her. telling somebody that nobody likes them and they will die alone and unloved because theyre such a horrible stupid and hateful person, and that nobody in the group likes them, and everyone in the group begged her not to allow me in, blahblah, for no other reason than they deleted a thread that was turning into a "bash frost" fest, in an attempt to AVOID drama.... no. just no. Its no great loss, nobody on that group liked or was helping me anyway

thank you tho. Its rough. finally things are looking up, but now if i cant find anything asap im gonna lose everything. trying not to have a total breakdown

[frostfell]

Originally Posted by crazedACD

If you need help with the dogs, please reach out on the forum.

Can you show your LL proof that you got a job and rent money will be coming shortly? Personal loan...even if it has horrible terms, at least it will keep you in the house. Reach out to friends and family. Sell what you can to get some rent money. Assuming, of course, that you are being evicted because you are late on rent?

Oh heck i dont know what i need. i cant stay where im at, its not a matter of money, its a matter of this was a temporary place and the owner of the house wasnt supposed to find out i was here and then she did and now shes going ape**** and wants me out NOW, but has generously given me 2 weeks, which was last monday so now 1 week. i just got a job last monday, the same day that horrible news came in, so i HAVE income... NOW. didnt before. but the issue is finding a place to rent thats on the bus line to get to the job, allows dogs, and is affordable and doesnt want paystubs and all that, because i work under the table. so far i have ONE lead, but its a hair out of my pricerange and im not sure i can handle it. rent, bills, and bus fare would consume exactly 105% of my income, with nothing left over for dog food or me food ( i get a small amt of foodstamps which helps but its not enough. i cannot live on ramen every day and be alive ). MAYBE someone taking the two dogs for a few months would help me find a place and get more stable and get a car, but i dont know. i dont have a magic crystal ball that can see into the future and say "ah HA! in 1 month and 18 days, a house for rent will come available 2 miles from work that allows dogs and is under 600 a month!" yaknow?

/rant

[*blackrose]

My vent:

I don't feel good. Weird sore throat, I feel dehydrated, somewhat sick, super tired...just ugh. At first I thought it was because I was drinking last night, but it's just kept getting worse as the day goes on, not better. And I've been drinking water like there's no tomorrow. Ugh.

Originally Posted by ~Dixie's_Mom~

So, I posted this in the "ever think about moving" thread, but I think it belongs here as well. I would like some advice if anyone has any.

As some of you know, I had a falling out with an EXTREMELY close friend of mine (like, sister close) and we go to the same church. And it's the church where my dad preaches so I really can't go anywhere. I have to see her several times a week and it makes it really hard to move on from our friendship especially since she's basically "moved on" from my sister and I to a pair of our mutual friends. So it makes everything really awkward and honestly the whole time I'm there I just feel like I'm going to cry. I can't stand it and I wish I could just move away and never see her again. Honestly if I never saw her again I would be fine. But having to see her every few days is exhausting me emotionally. I can't stand it but there's honestly nothing I can do. I wish she would leave our church but I don't see that happening either.

I really don't know what to do. I don't think I can take much more of this. I feel like I need flipping therapy, no joke. I feel sick all the time (like nauseous) just from being so sad about it. The times I'm able to push it from my mind I'm fine, and there are times when I say "I really don't care, I don't need her, I have so much to be thankful for, I need to let go and I'll be fine." But I literally can't. I don't know what to even do or how to do it. Does it just take time? It's been a month already. I don't know why I hold onto things and people so hard, I just do. And I hate it but I can't change it. And like I said, sometimes I'm just fine, but other times I'm so depressed and anxious and I feel like complete crap.

If you feel like you need therapy...don't be ashamed to go! That is what they are there for, and it is in NO way a shortcoming to want someone else's advice/opinions/techniques to help get you through a rough time.

I also think that getting out and changing things would do you good. I know you are the pastor's daughter so it would be odd if you went to a different congregation, but would your dad let you get out and try different churches? I think changing your environment and experiencing a different church (or churches) would be a good thing, even if it is to cement the fact that you love the church you're at. Going to church should make you feel excited and happy...not anxious and depressed because you are worried about running into your old friend. And if that is becoming an issue that is preventing you from feeling fulfillness out of going to church, then it may be time to try a different congregation, where you don't have so many ties.

[DJEtzel]

Originally Posted by frostfell

Im not, anymore. Carol (carnivore) is a vicious backbiting bipolar BITCH and I refuse to have anything to do with her. telling somebody that nobody likes them and they will die alone and unloved because theyre such a horrible stupid and hateful person, and that nobody in the group likes them, and everyone in the group begged her not to allow me in, blahblah, for no other reason than they deleted a thread that was turning into a "bash frost" fest, in an attempt to AVOID drama.... no. just no. Its no great loss, nobody on that group liked or was helping me anyway

thank you tho. Its rough. finally things are looking up, but now if i cant find anything asap im gonna lose everything. trying not to have a total breakdown

o.O I'm sorry about that. I don't participate or follow much anymore. Our venture into raw went very south and I know what you mean; it was all my fault and I was a horrible person if I didn't follow through with it. Crap and puke all over my house at least 5 times a day and unhappy dogs was not worth it.

I wish you the best of luck! I know you're probably on the other side of the state from me, but I'd be happy to help in any way possible if necessary.