My bf left me

[cloudcandy]

Something happened,I don't know how it escalatd first we were talking about needing needing space,then he said he didn't love me the same way he used to,that he is unhappy that im unhappy.I cant breath,i needed to tell someone but i cant say it.ive had thrre panic attacks since 11pm.I want to throw up.I had to hide all the scissors.I cant see the future and im scared.i feel sick,i need not to let this happen,iknew i shld never open you up to someone like that.I can't even be angry,he is being so nice,I can't even scream at him,smash his stuff and tell him to leave.I didn't know what to do,I managed to fall asleep it lasted an hour.I woke up and started crying again,so I wrote to you guys.God this is so stupid,but I can't speak to family or friends,then they'll know I'm crazy.
Coco is going to miss him that hurts so much,she looks so confused with me right now.

[GipsyQueen]

Oh no. I'm so sorry (((((HUGS))))) to you!

[cloudcandy]

Thanks. I don't know if any if that made sense but I needed to get it out.It's nearly 6am I need to sleep.

[JessLough]

I am so sorry (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) it's gonna take it's time, and that's normal

[cloudcandy]

Thanks What can I say to the doctor to get some help?I feel like there are rocks in my lungs,he us scared to leave me alone. I'm not going to do anything stupid but I can't do this.

[JessLough]

Tell him how you're feeling, and what happened. They'll get you to the right people

[bitme]

Change is good, just wait it out. You will come out of it OK.

[Whisper]

I'm so sorry, hon. (((((HUGS))))) I know it really hurts right now, but you will be 100% okay without him, even if you can't see it now. Cuddle with Coco and take things one step at a time.

[cloudcandy]

(((((( I cantbreathe thanks for the kind words

[Zoom]

It's ok to not want to scream and smash his stuff. IME, that's the mark of an immature person. You can be p*ssed/mad at him all you want and spend the next two weeks getting p*ssed on scrumpty if it helps. Maybe all you guys need is a break, both do a lot of thinking and see what happens from there.

I've been in that spot, where one party is so unhappy that it's just effecting everything. It sucks, but it's a learning process too. What do you want out of life, for real? Not just your bf, but long term? What would have in a mate/partner/lover if you could build them from scratch? Obviously you're not going to get 100% of the list, but hopefully you should be with someone who fits the most important parts/most of the list.

(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))