The Venting Thread
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Woke up in a horrible mood today. Took me laying in bed agitated for 20 minutes, huffing and puffing through getting dressed, mean mugging everyone on the way to the kitchen and halfway through a cup of coffee before I spyed everyone outside smoking and had a realization that is what was happening. I wanted a smoke. WTF. Smoking thing is new to me.
But it is definitely what is causing the infection in my tonsils. Sigh.
But it is definitely what is causing the infection in my tonsils. Sigh.
You aren't missing anything. It's a silly facebook hoax.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/08/27/two-moons-on-august-27-20_n_697155.html
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/08/27/two-moons-on-august-27-20_n_697155.html
It's not going to be all that big. 
http://earthsky.org/astronomy-essentials/visible-planets-tonight-mars-jupiter-venus-saturn-mercury
I'm cramping (although that's kind of a good news thing--one more month no babies!), I'm still livid over last night and all I want to do right now is get some beer and play spades. I still have at least 3 hours of work and I've been here since 9am.
http://earthsky.org/astronomy-essentials/visible-planets-tonight-mars-jupiter-venus-saturn-mercuryI'm cramping (although that's kind of a good news thing--one more month no babies!), I'm still livid over last night and all I want to do right now is get some beer and play spades. I still have at least 3 hours of work and I've been here since 9am.
I feel like **** today and ended up having to stay home from work.
I don't want to be here. I'm so miserable living in this area and want to get as far away from people as possible. Seriously need to live in the country somewhere or up in the mountains... somewhere I can think... somewhere I don't feel rushed every **** day. My anxiety has gotten SO bad since we moved back here... to the point where we have talked seriously about an SD dog or training Cricket to be an SD dog. I have dermatillomania where I pick at my skin constantly and it's always my **** face... if I don't cover my face with makeup I look horrible... especially my chin and throat. People keep telling me to stop picking at myself, but it just isn't that simple and I don't know how to make people understand that. So frustrating. I need to get the hell away from here. I really think living out in the country more will do wonders for my anxiety... just a hunch.
I don't want to be here. I'm so miserable living in this area and want to get as far away from people as possible. Seriously need to live in the country somewhere or up in the mountains... somewhere I can think... somewhere I don't feel rushed every **** day. My anxiety has gotten SO bad since we moved back here... to the point where we have talked seriously about an SD dog or training Cricket to be an SD dog. I have dermatillomania where I pick at my skin constantly and it's always my **** face... if I don't cover my face with makeup I look horrible... especially my chin and throat. People keep telling me to stop picking at myself, but it just isn't that simple and I don't know how to make people understand that. So frustrating. I need to get the hell away from here. I really think living out in the country more will do wonders for my anxiety... just a hunch.
Well that is good to know.
I would agree about the "I don't know" means "I don't want to talk about it" as I was the same way BUT Hannah is a talker... About everything. That's how she works through... EVERYTHING lol
And my little brother used to have night terrors with no recollection once he woke up. I'm not saying she is having night terrors, certainly not like my brother did but I do believe she doesn't remember.
She did tell me last night that she was scared that bad people would come in the dark. I just tried to reassure her that Beezer is always on the lookout for bad people and that he would bark, etc. she tried to talk him into sleeping with her but he likes to sleep out near the door. I think that would have helped if he would have stayed with her lol
I would agree about the "I don't know" means "I don't want to talk about it" as I was the same way BUT Hannah is a talker... About everything. That's how she works through... EVERYTHING lol
And my little brother used to have night terrors with no recollection once he woke up. I'm not saying she is having night terrors, certainly not like my brother did but I do believe she doesn't remember.
She did tell me last night that she was scared that bad people would come in the dark. I just tried to reassure her that Beezer is always on the lookout for bad people and that he would bark, etc. she tried to talk him into sleeping with her but he likes to sleep out near the door. I think that would have helped if he would have stayed with her lol
Money stresses me out. Bah.
Budgeting = good. Knowing how much I am spending = good. But now I'm all like 'omg, I will have NOTHING while I save this last bit for the down payment'. And then realizing I'm poor compared to my friends since they have 2 incomes and I have one. Shouldn't feel bad about it and I don't want to spend $1000 on a designer purse but dang... Everyone's buying all this big stuff like multiple vacations and a new house and I feel.... poor. Then I feel like a failure and think I should go back to school and get that 6 figure income but I really feel like going back to school would make me kinda miserable. And I'm finally getting to where I like my life and have friends again and things to do. Plus, I like my paychecks and insurance and all that and there's no way to stay at work and do school for the majors I'd be looking at. Why did I not think about salary when I chose my major? Why is everything so expensive? I spend $250 a month just on gas. Ack.
I'm also stressing about Mia's knees and my health and stress is bad, right? Not going to help me get healthier.
I need wine but I have none.
Budgeting = good. Knowing how much I am spending = good. But now I'm all like 'omg, I will have NOTHING while I save this last bit for the down payment'. And then realizing I'm poor compared to my friends since they have 2 incomes and I have one. Shouldn't feel bad about it and I don't want to spend $1000 on a designer purse but dang... Everyone's buying all this big stuff like multiple vacations and a new house and I feel.... poor. Then I feel like a failure and think I should go back to school and get that 6 figure income but I really feel like going back to school would make me kinda miserable. And I'm finally getting to where I like my life and have friends again and things to do. Plus, I like my paychecks and insurance and all that and there's no way to stay at work and do school for the majors I'd be looking at. Why did I not think about salary when I chose my major? Why is everything so expensive? I spend $250 a month just on gas. Ack.
I'm also stressing about Mia's knees and my health and stress is bad, right? Not going to help me get healthier.
I need wine but I have none.
For some reason all day today I kept thinking that tomorrow is Thursday. I wish, because even though the week just started I'm already ready for a day off lol. But I felt completely stupid when I was setting up an appointment today, and the woman wanted to know what we had open tomorrow afternoon and I proceeded to look at Thursday's schedule and set up a time for her based off that. Thankfully the time I scheduled her for IS available for tomorrow so I didn't have to call her back and admit my stupidity lol.
And at our staff meeting today, we were focusing on learning how to assess body fat index and other weight management thingies. We were supposed to bring our pets in for some hands on learning and so we could compare our thoughts with others. I brought Juno in as an example of ideal, and Lucy for an example of just-a-little-chubby. One of the vets gave Juno a score of 6/9 (a little more covering over her ribs than necessary; 5/9 is ideal) and now I'm convinced my dog is a tub of lard.
Thankfully the time I scheduled her for IS available for tomorrow so I didn't have to call her back and admit my stupidity lol. And at our staff meeting today, we were focusing on learning how to assess body fat index and other weight management thingies. We were supposed to bring our pets in for some hands on learning and so we could compare our thoughts with others. I brought Juno in as an example of ideal, and Lucy for an example of just-a-little-chubby. One of the vets gave Juno a score of 6/9 (a little more covering over her ribs than necessary; 5/9 is ideal) and now I'm convinced my dog is a tub of lard.
And at our staff meeting today, we were focusing on learning how to assess body fat index and other weight management thingies. We were supposed to bring our pets in for some hands on learning and so we could compare our thoughts with others. I brought Juno in as an example of ideal, and Lucy for an example of just-a-little-chubby. One of the vets gave Juno a score of 6/9 (a little more covering over her ribs than necessary; 5/9 is ideal) and now I'm convinced my dog is a tub of lard.
So I just wrote a whole post in response to this and then my phone ate it... And I have to get to class now so..... Summing up:
"You are being successful independently. You are not leaning on another person to take up slack. You are buying a house ON YOUR OWN! You need to feel super proud of yourself!"
"You are being successful independently. You are not leaning on another person to take up slack. You are buying a house ON YOUR OWN! You need to feel super proud of yourself!"
