Chaz vibes please?
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I'm sorry I haven't updated this for so long! Thank you so much for keeping my boy in your thoughts. His survival is really a miracle. The doctor told me that when he came in they gave him a 10% chance of surviving. He lost tons of blood, because 2 arteries were hit.
I'm really emotionally exhausted. But I'm so happy, Frank is doing much better.
His facial swelling has gone down a lot, all of the doctors said he's amazing, but he still has breathing/feeding tubes because his throat is totally swollen shut. He has been stable today though. He will have to stay in the hospital until he can breathe on his own... hopefully he'll be able to leave next week. I just want him to get better so I can take him home!
I was having contractions last night and it really scared me. I've never had contractions. I went to the doctor today and he said the baby looks super healthy. He said I need to stop stressing though, which is really hard to do. It's just so hard seeing my Frankie in this kind of pain. He winces and shakes from pain all the time and it just kills me to see that. He wrote me a letter today and it was so sweet. It said he survived because of me and Malakai, he's dedicating his life to us, we're meant to be together, and how much he loves me. It is such a terrible situation but it has had the most positive affect possible on us.
The worst part has been his meth head Mom and it's just heart-breaking to see him cry and write about how bad it hurts that he doesn't have a parent who cares about him. MY PARENTS, who have only met him a few times, have visited more than his Mom... who lives right down the street. She has visited once a day, for 3 minutes, during which all she does is yell at nurses & complain about her own health (which is awful - because she has been doing drugs for decades). She tricked me into driving her 1 hour away, saying she needed food, took my $50 bill and bought drugs with it. Then she and her boyfriend screamed at me when I said that's not ok! I didn't care about her taking my money even. All I cared about was the fact that I spent 2 hours doing a drug run for them and taking them home instead of being with Frank right after he got out of surgery. I'm pregnant... I don't need to be driving to drug houses, and getting screamed at, on top of everything. I told her I don't want to see her again if she chooses drugs over her family. I have never been so disgusted by anyone... and Frank is such a good son with the best heart, he doesn't deserve that. It makes me really grateful that he's so determined to be a loving Dad to his son, and he knows how important that is, because he never had that. I'm so ready to move on from his family, the past & everything that doesn't matter and have our own awesome family.
I'm really emotionally exhausted. But I'm so happy, Frank is doing much better.
His facial swelling has gone down a lot, all of the doctors said he's amazing, but he still has breathing/feeding tubes because his throat is totally swollen shut. He has been stable today though. He will have to stay in the hospital until he can breathe on his own... hopefully he'll be able to leave next week. I just want him to get better so I can take him home!I was having contractions last night and it really scared me. I've never had contractions. I went to the doctor today and he said the baby looks super healthy. He said I need to stop stressing though, which is really hard to do. It's just so hard seeing my Frankie in this kind of pain. He winces and shakes from pain all the time and it just kills me to see that. He wrote me a letter today and it was so sweet. It said he survived because of me and Malakai, he's dedicating his life to us, we're meant to be together, and how much he loves me. It is such a terrible situation but it has had the most positive affect possible on us.
The worst part has been his meth head Mom and it's just heart-breaking to see him cry and write about how bad it hurts that he doesn't have a parent who cares about him. MY PARENTS, who have only met him a few times, have visited more than his Mom... who lives right down the street. She has visited once a day, for 3 minutes, during which all she does is yell at nurses & complain about her own health (which is awful - because she has been doing drugs for decades). She tricked me into driving her 1 hour away, saying she needed food, took my $50 bill and bought drugs with it. Then she and her boyfriend screamed at me when I said that's not ok! I didn't care about her taking my money even. All I cared about was the fact that I spent 2 hours doing a drug run for them and taking them home instead of being with Frank right after he got out of surgery. I'm pregnant... I don't need to be driving to drug houses, and getting screamed at, on top of everything. I told her I don't want to see her again if she chooses drugs over her family. I have never been so disgusted by anyone... and Frank is such a good son with the best heart, he doesn't deserve that. It makes me really grateful that he's so determined to be a loving Dad to his son, and he knows how important that is, because he never had that. I'm so ready to move on from his family, the past & everything that doesn't matter and have our own awesome family.
(hugs to you and Frank)
Thank you for updating and hope he continues to progress in his recovery fast. You three will be in many prayers tonight.
Don't let his family or mom abuse your kindness or prey on you - remove yourself from them if possible, you don't need such people in your lives; regardless of who they are. Alot of people (including me) don't have parents they can really count/depend on. But you and him have each other - and your son, and your own parents/family. Cherish them all and move forward <3
Thank you for updating and hope he continues to progress in his recovery fast. You three will be in many prayers tonight.
Don't let his family or mom abuse your kindness or prey on you - remove yourself from them if possible, you don't need such people in your lives; regardless of who they are. Alot of people (including me) don't have parents they can really count/depend on. But you and him have each other - and your son, and your own parents/family. Cherish them all and move forward <3
Wow! Thinking of you guys!
I know he may balk at this but can you get him into counseling? For this and his parents etc. things seem good now but let him talk to someone. So often things go bad after something like this. Just jump ahead of it.
I know this is a dumb question as your family is supportive right? But good lord can you move?! Get away from his mom and the issues. They will always chase him but are you in a safe area in general?
I am very black and white with this stuff. No more contact with his mom period. You don't want that around your child. One wrong person a her home with your baby there and it could be your child that's shot. She's made her bed- let her walk to get her drugs and never give her a dime.
I know he may balk at this but can you get him into counseling? For this and his parents etc. things seem good now but let him talk to someone. So often things go bad after something like this. Just jump ahead of it.
I know this is a dumb question as your family is supportive right? But good lord can you move?! Get away from his mom and the issues. They will always chase him but are you in a safe area in general?
I am very black and white with this stuff. No more contact with his mom period. You don't want that around your child. One wrong person a her home with your baby there and it could be your child that's shot. She's made her bed- let her walk to get her drugs and never give her a dime.