This thread makes me cry... Stephy, you are way too smart, awesome and beautiful to be selling your body. I know you're getting numb to it right now - that's because, sadly, you don't care about yourself. And having sex for money is only going to make that worse, lead down an endless path of self loathing, depression, drugs, and pain. You deserve so much better!!! You're gorgeous. If you must work in the industry, at least get into exotic dancing or porn. Something safe an d re gulated.
you could die out there, messing with people who don't care about you at all. Even if you don't get physically hurt... no amount of money is worth selling your soul. I know you don't feel great right now but it gets better. You need to do what is best for you! Prostituting is not it. Seriously, you're way too good for that.
I wish you lived nearby. I would love to help out you & Katalin.