The Venting Thread

I sadly have no life brightening words of advice that will lift your spirits and remind you of the joys of skipping through fields of dandelions naked with flowers in your hair because other people have it worse (so of course, you can't be depressed) and of course something I say (because I know everything about your life and brain) will help you see the light and joy in the world and lift you out of your depression!

Did the same thing with my friend with the flu last week. A few inspirational quotes and told her about starving kids in africa who have it worse and then BOOM! CURED!

jokes aside, that blows and I hope it gets better soon.
(internet hugs)

I've been there, and I'm sorry that's where you are. I hope your doctor finds something that works, and that you feel better soon. I know it sucks to go through trial and error with meds. Super redhead hugs. <3

Keeping me on hold won't make me any nicer when you finally pick up you douchecanoes.

((hugs))

i wish i could say or do something to make it all better, but i can't and that makes me sad.




I'm pretty low right now. Some stuff happened and I'm trying to deal with it. I hurt and it's no one's fault, it's the fault of a situation i entered into willingly knowing the risks. It's my own fault really, but not really, if that makes sense. It's not even that bad, i'm not losing anyone, it's just changing.

I'm at a point where my good days are more than my bad, but my bad days feel pretty bad and I know because of today that they're going to increase in number most likely... There's only so much I can do and tell myself to make myself not go there. I've decided I'm going to start looking for a therapist again. I want to do something and I'm over feeling like seeking out help is showing weakness.

https://www.healthcare.gov/how-can-...-and-savings-on-marketplace-health-insurance/

says to use the keiser family foundation calculator. found here

http://kff.org/interactive/subsidy-calculator/


according to this , I will have to pay 14,000 or so a year in premiums with something like 2000 in deductables.

right now i pay 2500.00 a year thru my employer with the word around the yard is that will be doubling in the new year. while 5000 is cheaper than 14,000 . i cant afford either. It also point out the tax this year will be 95.00 and will increase to 695 by 2014. per person.


and no expanded medicaid here either.

i really am stumped as what would be the best to do and am trying to educate myself as much as possible.

Exactly this. If it wasn't for the Affordable Care Act, I would have lost insurance 2 years ago. Instead I'm just now losing it, and hopefully (if they ever get my identity verified so I can look at options >.<) I'll only have to go 2 months without insurance.

My vent? My mental health SUCKS. I'm swinging between 'so depressed I can't get out of bed' and only reading/browsing the web is keeping me distracted, to 'so depressed I'm contemplating hurting myself and/or other things.'

It's not like it was two years ago, I actually realize I can be happy and can remember the times that I was happy and that keeps me from going "well, I'm just going to slit my wrists now" and instead I go out for a walk or take something to make me sleep. But realistically, how much longer can I stand meds not working!? I've got a docs appointment and I'm going to bring up a couple things, but there is no easy or quick fix. And it seems like everything I try stops working after 3 months.

Yeah it's great ... Until you realize that it was shoved down our throats, and if you don't find SOME insurance by the time it takes effect they will find the crap out of you, yeah ... It's great.
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My college friend is getting married (yay!) I mean we are friends we banter on FB and I call her for her birthday but I wouldn't call her from prison kind of friendship you know?
I live in Boston, her groom has 10 groomsmen so she needed another girl.. she asked me and another friend to be a bridesmaids, I was happy to accept (I mean why not right?)

The thing is, she wants us all to buy these dresses that are about $450 the rest of the bridesmaids and I are all in agreement that that is A LOT of money for a dress (and a very simple dress at that, it's just designer) that we are going to wear ONCE

We talked to her about it but she is digging her heels in
She actually said "I've seen all of you in dresses more expensive than this! This is my day and I've spent so much more on each of you on this wedding"
to be fair
- Yes, we have dresses that cost that and more, but that's dresses that we LIKE
- She has spent a lot on travel, taking us to go pick out dresses, each persons plate etc.. BUT ITS FOR HER WEDDING

This is a very very expensive wedding. I should've maybe seen this coming but I thought there would be alternatives! (rent a dresses? more options?)

I feel so bad telling her I don't want to buy the dress or can't be in the wedding I mean she's SO STRESSED OUT already about everything.
but I just really don't want to spend that much.

Ugh wedding dramas.
I personally would never put my friends in this situation, pay for the dresses or have some wiggle room!

I'm at a blah point right now. I feel like.... life should have more meaning?

For some reason I suck at finding a SO. My job is... alright. I feel very trapped so instead I just try not to feel and then just keep doing my own thing. But it's lonely.

Sometimes I think I must just blend in to the wall.

So, I think you should just lay in bed, watch Torchwood (or Doctor Who) for hours on end, and cry. Because that's my solution for everything. It may not change the way you feel (but it might), but at least it's something to do.

You're awesome. I doubt you blend into a wall! You're funny, energetic, and pretty, and that's not really a "wallflower" recipe. I think it's just crappy luck.

What are you doing to try to get out and meet new people?

Generally just failing. I really don't have many ideas. :/

Thanks though. I wish there was more to do around here. There's just not much to do.

There's been time to figure that part out....and it was NOT shoved down our throats...the plan was outlined when Obama was campaigning for the first time and he was voted in by the majority based on getting it done.

Misery loves company right? Sigh

I'm going to try meetup.com.

I make friends that could potentially be good friends but they move or something. And all of them are married and most with kids and it's just weird. And who knows what I want to do with my life job-wise? Or kids wise? I don't know and I should.... I turn 27 next week...

My totally petty problem: I woke up with a huge zit on my eyelid. My EYELID. I didn't even know that was possible.