I'm so terribly sorry for the loss of such a sweet, loving friend. My wish is for you to find peace in your good memories of happy times. It takes time to get to some kind of acceptance when such a hole is made in your heart. (((hugs)))
"If you love wealth better than liberty, the tranquility of servitude better than the animating contest of freedom, go home from us in peace. We ask not your counsels or arms. Crouch down and lick the hands which feed you. May your chains set lightly upon you and may posterity forget that ye were our countrymen." -- Samuel Adams 1776
"When the people fear their government, there is tyranny; when the government fears the people, there is liberty."