RIP Princess I still miss you more than ever
Its been 4 years. On May 17th 2009 it will have been 4 years.
I wrote in a journal about it when it happened. I read that today and I wanted to cry
This is taken from that page of my Journal.
So many things have happened over the last few months. In May I went to my senior prom and graduated highschool. But sadly my dog, my very best friend Princess passed away a few days before I graduated. On my last day of school I came home and let her out of her pen for awhile and then I put her back in and when to work. Later that night I got a call saying that Princess was really sick, sicker than we had ever seen her. I came home and spent some time with her and then got ready for bed. The next morning I was afraid to get up, afraid of what I might find. Princess was still alive but she wasn't doing well and she kept falling down and I knew it was time. Princess had been sick for awhile and I knew i was going to have to make a decision sooner or later. It was on May 17, 2005 that i was with Princess when she took her last breath. My heart broke that Tuesday and has yet to mend..............I don't cry over Princess every night anymore but here is a poem I wrote for her the aday after she died:
I don't know if you can hear me
but there are so many things I need to say
Understand this had to be
I couldn't let my selfishness get in the way
I don't know if you understand
Why I did what I did
Even I don't quite understand
Why it had to come down to this
My dearest love, my dearest friend
You helped me through the rain
You shared my joy, you shared my pain
You helped me find a brighter day
My heart aches without you by my side
My heart breaks knowing I can't see you with my eyes
But I feel you here in my heart and in my sould
And that is how I know I'll never have to let you go
You wre the angel that God sent to me
To help me through my troubles, to set my spirit free
You wre there no matter what life had to bring
And now you finally have your angel wings
You went home on a beautiful Tuesday afternoon
The sun shone bright, there were no clouds in sight
You were buried under the old pine tree
Its very quiet and peaceful, the best place for you to rest
I miss you more each second
But don't worry about me I'll be just fine
You're in my heart forever
No matter what you'll always be mine
I'll see you on the other side
Thats where we'll meet again
Until then please remember
I love you and you are my dearest friend"
I was 19 when I had to make the choice to put her down. And sometimes I still wonder if it was the right decision. Even though the vet said she probably wouldn't have made it more than a week.
Life is precious and had I known that our last day together would be our last I would have done so many things different.
Princess came to live with us the summer before I started High School. She passed away the day after I finished high school.....she was there for me during the hardest years of a young girls life. She lived two lifetimes in one. She saw her former master through to the end of her life and then she came and was there for me.
If any dog deserves angel wings its her.
I named Sasha after her (Sasha Princess) in her honor.
Its been 4 years and I still think of her often.
And I still need to keep Princesses memory alive, she did so much.
So in honor of Princess I just as of you a few small things.
Those things are:
when you see your dog just give him or her a big hug and appreciate them.
The other thing: Remember how precious life is and always keep those you love near and dear because you never know how long you will have them. Love them, support them, appreciate them, never ever leave things on bad terms......never go to sleep angry.
Time is something you never get back....so appreciate every moment.
And that is how I want to honor Princess by living my life better. Princess loved everyone we all could learn a lot from her.
i love you princess, I miss you, and you will never be forgotten because you are still with me every day.
To everyone else: Thanks for listening and God Bless