I've been feeling really down lately, and have been getting so angry over the stupidest things. I hate feeling helpless and that just adds to the anger. I'll be honest, I don't trust my self any more. It's not what I would do to myself, but what I'm afraid I'll do to anyone who gets me angry. I try so hard to be nice, so hard to avoid confrontation, and it backfires. I guess I'm too soft when it comes to emotions, and I hate that about myself. I really fear that if somone gets me angry, I'll just lose it. I know it sounds stupid, but for one reason or another that has been my mentality lately. I don't know why things affect me the way they do. I was thinking today and I've never met anyone like myself. I feel alone. Usually, thats fine by me. Usually, I'd just say screw everyone else, I don't need anyone. But now, I feel really empty and in a way scared. I thank you for reading this and I dont expect a response back. I just need to get this out and try to get everything sorted out. Thanks for listening.